Gaslighting

Well, I really wonder if the market is going to crash next week, don't you?
For some reason, I can't help but think that's the only way it's going to go...
Even so, if I get too attached to that idea here, it will only push it further away, you know.
In conclusion, whether it happens next week or not, it doesn't really matter.
I know it's coming eventually, anyway.
Getting impatient really doesn't do anyone any good.

With that said, let's get into the main topic.
Since the pandemic, I have been unconsciously working on what Jung called "individuation" (a process of returning to one's true self).
Of course, this is a lifelong concept with no end, but in terms of "self-acceptance," it seems to be mostly complete.
Actually, lately I've been receiving lectures from the universe about the structure of what we call the "third dimension."
That's because in this life, I've lived through such relentless circumstances from the very beginning that I never had the luxury of looking at the third dimension objectively.
So now, it feels like I'm being taught about it collectively, using the life I've experienced as a textbook.
And, as I've written here several times...
I've been taught, very objectively, about the background and mechanisms of the conflicts and such that I've constantly fallen into within my upbringing and relationships with others.
And through that, I felt like I was being told, "Interpret what the third dimension is in your own way."
This is also a task that could transcend a lifetime if I'm not careful, but I feel like I've started to see it a bit over the last few days.
So today, I think I'll summarize that.

You know, there's something I've constantly felt was "creepy" for a long, long time.
It's hard to express in words, but to put it simply, it feels like "silent pressure" or perhaps "tacit understanding."
Maybe it's linked to my childhood, where I was raised as a scapegoat, but I was never able to "follow the atmosphere of the room."
Of course, it's also that I'm not good at "reading the room," but when I was in a space where that was required, I would get goosebumps from how creepy it felt, and at the same time, a strong thought would arise: "Why do I have to do something so troublesome?"
But I've never been able to express that well until now...

But I finally learned the word "gaslighting" recently.
It seems the origin comes from the movie "Gaslight" starring Ingrid Bergman...
It's a type of abuse where one distorts the other person's perception by continuously lying in a plausible way, making them accept things in a way that is convenient for the abuser.
When I learned that, I was a bit stunned.
I felt, "Ah, this is what I've been subjected to for so long."
My mother, who wanted sympathy from the rest of the family by making me the scapegoat, was certainly doing this.
Besides her, up until very recently, people who would try to do this to me have appeared in my life from time to time.
For example, there were those who tried to win arguments by asserting things like "I never said that" or "This is what I said," forcing me into a stalemate.
There were also those who, after a disjointed conversation, would always add a sigh-filled comment like "It's difficult to deal with you," making me want to apologize for no reason.
In short, it's an attempt to overwrite my memories and perceptions to suit their own convenience.
By repeating this, the victim starts to lose confidence in themselves, wondering, "Was I the one who was wrong?"

Furthermore, that's not all.
What happens when this occurs within an organization, like a company or a family?
For example, if the person in the highest position is gaslighting someone below them...
Would the people present, even if they knew it was a lie, bother to point it out?
Or, like in my family in the past, if the same person is always being gaslighted, would those who see it try to help?
Or would they laugh along with the scapegoating to avoid being targeted themselves?
In fact, they might even take the initiative to start gaslighting themselves to please the person in charge.
I think that the third-dimensional society is one that does these things as easily as breathing.
In other words, regardless of whether it's "true or false," they unite and collude to force through the needs of those in power or the organization itself.
It has become a daily occurrence to call something that exists "non-existent" and twist reality however they please.
That's why they can calmly assert that what is convenient for them is "the truth."
But you know, if you keep doing that, your perspective becomes increasingly selective.
In other words, you end up only being able to see what is convenient for you.
The catchphrase of people who have become like that is usually, "That can't be right!"
In other words, if they don't allow themselves to "pretend things didn't happen," the common sense they've built up would easily collapse.

So finally, why is this happening?
It's because the third dimension itself is nothing more than a fragile illusion built on shaky ground.
Therefore, if those experiencing it don't keep increasing their cognitive tolerance, it will collapse in an instant.
And at this point, it looks to me like everyone involved is desperately struggling just to maintain the third dimension.
But I think that painstaking effort is reaching its limit, don't you?

With that, it's gotten long again, but that's all for today.
If anyone stayed with me until the end, thank you very much!