I participated in the "Dream🍀Consultation Room" New Year's party😊✨❣

This afternoon, January 21st, I had the pleasure of participating in the "Dream🍀Consultation Room" New Year's party(^_-)-☆
I wasn't able to attend the year-end party, so this was my first time in a while meeting with everyone from the consultation room and talking with the other participants.

This time, I was a complete stranger to all the participants other than those from the consultation room.
You know, these kinds of online meetings can be surprisingly nerve-wracking at first.
Actually, I felt that way too. Or rather, I still get nervous; I sometimes freeze up.

It seems that unlike meeting in person, some people find online interactions surprisingly nerve-wracking.
I find myself thinking about what to say or worrying about how I look on camera.

Even so, I don't dislike participating in things.
I have an HSP temperament, and among those, I am the minority HSS-type HSP.
I participated because I wanted to share my thoughts, just as I do on note, in the hope that both I and others could enjoy the experience.

Now, the theme for this time was "Things I want to do in 2023."
Each person shared their goals and hopes.
Hearing about everyone's unique and wonderful goals gave me dreams and hope as well.
It had been a while since I last participated, but as always, everyone's stories were so insightful.

I often discover things I don't have, and I found myself taking notes while thinking, 'Wow!'
I've been busy since this morning, working hard from home to make it to this meeting, grabbing a quick lunch while out, and then returning to join in, but it was a fulfilling day.

Actually, I had initially told them that I still had work left and would have to leave about 30 minutes before the end...
But, I kept thinking, 'I'll leave after this person finishes speaking,' or 'I'll leave in just a little bit,' and before I knew it, the meeting was over😅
In the end, I stayed until the very end (lol)
Well, I managed to finish my work by 7:00 P.M. without any issues, so to everyone at the consultation room, please don't worry👍

I'm not very good at switching gears like that, but participating in these kinds of meetings always makes me think about something.
When I write on note, I feel that it's actually quite difficult to convey my thoughts through speaking.
When writing, I can edit later, but when speaking, I often forget what I wanted to say, worry that I haven't conveyed even half of what I intended, or reflect on whether I gave an off-topic answer to a question.

I like talking, but I'm still not good at talking about myself or explaining things to get others to understand in front of everyone.
I don't think I'm as good at conveying things to people as I am when I write them down.

Perhaps because I'm naturally reserved or laid-back, when I put my feelings, thoughts, and ideas into words, I often think later, 'Hmm, was that okay?'
I want to be able to express my feelings honestly; maybe it doesn't have to be that precise, though💦

Because of this nature of mine, I sometimes lose out by not having an advantage over others, and at times it takes a while for people to understand who I am.

However, at the "Dream🍀Consultation Room" online meetings, everyone listens carefully, and there is wonderful interaction.
It's something I look forward to, as it gives me hope that there are people who will face me even as I am✨

At today's meeting, when I first entered the Zoom room, one of the counselors told me that I seemed different.
I thought, 'Huh? Really!?' but I was happy that they remembered my impression even though it had been a while😊

Even as an adult, there are times when interacting with people is just as fun as it was when I was young.
Perhaps it's because we live in an age where human relationships are thin.
I truly feel that people are always seeking heart-to-heart connection.

It's been a little while since the new year began, but I wish everyone a happy year ahead!🌺

Thank you for a fun New Year's party today✨✨