[Monthly Report] Facing reality with teary eyes. But, September, the month I vow not to give up

What was I doing in September?

Writing

Thinking, thinking, and thinking

Writing again

Rewriting

Writing again

Worrying

Editing

Worrying, worrying, and worrying

Editing

Messing up

Yeah, just like always (lol).

Oh, but I did make sure to schedule some personal time too. Like having calls and meeting up with friends.

Even online, I had the chance to hear about many people's experiences, and it really broadened my perspective!

I learned that everyone is going through some pretty intense experiences.

Everyone is doing a great job surviving the present.

Language usage varies depending on the community. There are some people whose tone is a bit harsh, making me think 'Eek!' (since most people around me are the gentle type).



But expressing opinions clearly is, in itself, a form of love for the other person.

Even if the words are a bit harsh, you can somehow tell whether they just want to win an argument or if they truly want to broaden the other person's perspective.

Conversely, the same goes for the receiver. It's also easy to tell when someone seems to be asking for advice but has no intention of actually changing... I truly feel that you cannot change people.^^;



You can lead a horse to water, but you cannot make it drink.Was it 'The Courage to Be Happy'? I think something like this was written in some psychology book.

I used to be afraid of receiving evaluations or feedback and couldn't change easily, but my way of thinking has changed quite a bit now.

While there is some aptitude involved in what we can't do, often it's just that we don't know how, so it's faster to ask a professional (preferably a top-tier one).

Also, I believe that even if you run away from things you lack confidence in, they will take another form and a time will come when you have to face them eventually. Before I have to be told by someone in harsh words (you could say it's still good as long as they are willing to tell you), I've been thinking lately that I should try to face reality as much as possible...

Although there are times when I get depressed from facing reality too directly (teary-eyed), I don't want to indulge in comfort and retreat into a world of delusion.

While getting hurt, while failing, and sometimes while relying on others. If I can grow more than in the past, while occasionally being a little kind to myself... I want to keep growing without being swept away by the busyness of the world.

Thanks to friends who care about me, I was able to spend September being kind to myself while broadening my perspective. Also, I've been saved quite a bit by my 'oshi' (favorite idol/character) (lol).

Everyone, thank you as always.

And thank you to you, who read this!

I wrote a very serious note (as a Kansai person, I feel restless when there's no punchline... lol).