【Trying it out but failing】A story about how I found my own way to progress and softened my perfectionism

I'm interested, but I find it hard to take the first step.

At times like that,
there is something I hold dear.

“First, get a feel for it.”

Don't worry about the results, like finishing it to the end
or making it a success,

first,
what is the process for what I'm about to try,
and can I actually do it?

To know those things,
I value getting a sense of the overall atmosphere.I value that.

Because not knowing is scary.


But,
if I can at least get a feel for the atmosphere,
I can think about whether to do it, if I can do it, or how to go about it.

I can think about my next steps.

At first, my perfectionism would kick in and I couldn't take action.

“If I'm going to do it, I don't want to fail,”
“I don't have the confidence to make it a success,”
“I don't even know if I can finish it to the end.”

I didn't want to leave things half-finished, so I worried about what I should do.
I was troubled by not knowing how to proceed.

Exhausted from worrying, in the end, I would just
say "forget it" and not do it at all.

But I was still interested.

It was one of the reasons
I came to dislike my indecisive self.

Do it this way.

Even when I took advice from those around me,
I just didn't feel like I could do it.

The hurdle was too high for me.

"Lower the hurdle." Find a hurdle low enough that I can move.

But what should I do to actually take action
when I'm just making excuses and not doing anything?

What I found was,
first,get a feel for the overall atmosphere.

Doing it = Results are mandatory

Since that was hindering my actions,

Let's do some warm-up exercises before taking on a challenge.

By keeping that mindset in mind,
I overcame the 'I want to do it but I can't' hurdle.

The results I achieved

So far, I have been able to
fulfill many of the things I wanted to try.

Sold my first paid article

Even for an article where I thought, 'Will anyone even read this?'

This article
became the most viewed article out of all my posts. (It is still being updated)

The dream of wanting to use hashtags and
writing an article about it have also come true

I was also interested in Amazon Associates, so I gave it a try

Taking that first step is scary, after all.

What if the people around me react coldly?
Or worse, what if there's no reaction at all...

But even so, there was a part of me that was interested.

I wanted to cherish those feelings of mine.
I will be happy for my own sake.
Since I had been looking at those around me to the point of breaking my own heart

This time.

It's scary, but I'm doing it to make myself happy.

Without giving up,
I found my own way to move forward.

And then,
beyond that, I found a sense of fun,
the joy of accomplishment, and confidence,

and above all,
I was able to encounter a reason to love myself.

It's fun, isn't it?
When you're doing the things you want to do.

Thinking, "I'm fulfilled!"

There, the eyes and judgments of others don't exist,
just the pure joy of taking action!

I am very grateful for the advice from those around me.
But it doesn't necessarily suit me, so

If you know what is hindering your path
and find yourself hesitating to take on a challenge

please start by
getting a feel for the atmosphere.

As you begin to grasp your own way of moving forward,
instead of saying you can't,
your focus will shift toward trying it out.

Thank you for
reading until the end ☺️

~These will surely be helpful as well, so please take a look together~