[Three-Topic Story] Reason for Being

I'm not going to talk about anything difficult.

It's just that one of the topics for Yasu-san's three-topic story was Leonardo da Vinci, so this song came to mind, that's all.

"Ecstasy★Raison d'être"

A project that was supposed to have started with the concept of a concert featuring great figures and historical people.

My favorite voice actor, Yusuke Shirai, was singing in it as Leonardo da Vinci. The role was somewhat insane. I love the voice Shirai-san does when he's being crazy 💚

I suddenly got curious about the word "raison d'être," looked it up, and found it meant "reason for being," so I used it for the title. That's all.

Reason for being, reason for existence.

If you ask others for that, it's bound to be heavy, isn't it? There are events that make me have to remind myself, and if I start thinking about it, a storm warning for my heart gets issued.

But I'm super bad at thinking about my own reason for being or reason for existence.

Before I started Note, I had lost my creative drive, and I didn't have the words to express myself.

Chasing after fun things on X might have been my only connection to the outside world.

And yet, now, I'm really enjoying creating things.

Yeah.

I think I'm having fun.

No, I'm actually in a bit of a writer's block phase right now 😅

But I don't really feel pessimistic just because I can't write. When I thought about why I'm usually an anxious person but don't feel pessimistic about writing, I realized something.

I think it's because I like things here and there.

I like writing
I like helping people
I like supporting my favorites
I like watching creations, whether professional or amateur
.........
What else is there?

Even if it doesn't come to mind right away, I like a lot of things, and I think I switch between them like a daily set menu—today it's this, tomorrow it's that.

Perhaps if I could draw, I would have drawn, and if I could play an instrument, I would have expressed myself through music.

By nature, I am not good at staying in one place or being tied down, and I am sure that is because I want to see and think about various things from various perspectives.

If only I could express what I have thought about from various perspectives through creation or writing.

Surely, if it catches the eye of someone who does not want to see it, it will hurt them.

Surely, there will be times in the future when people will be disappointed, saying, 'I never thought you were that kind of person, Nami-san.'

I want to view the thoughts of such people as one perspective as well.

I am sorry for hurting you.
It is scary to hurt others.

But this is my unwavering opinion.

Perhaps I am finding my reason for existence.

I want to continue writing.

I do not know if it will make money or not.

But you know, writing and expressing myself is fun and makes me happy.

For now, I just want to write.

And I am proud of myself for being able to declare that boldly on note.

#ThursdayIsThreeDay