Memories of My Mother: The 5 AM Voice
Today, I reflect on a morning habit I shared with my late mother.
I do this so that I will not forget what I learned through caring for her.
📞 A Morning Habit with My Mother
Back then, my mother had learned how to use a flip phone,
and she would call me almost every morning around 5:00 AM.
My father would still be asleep, as he woke up at 6:00 AM.
She probably figured I would be awake and getting ready to head out, so it would be fine.
Even when we talked, it would last at most about 10 minutes.
She would call from under her covers, and it seems she would go right back to sleep after the call ended.
She was never a morning person.
Above all, she was someone who hated being lonely.
📩 The "Major News" That Arrived Suddenly
Then, she was hospitalized again and was in a situation where she couldn't call freely.
I learned about the situation through an email titled Major News from the Family.
The email contained a photo of my mother after her treatment at the hospital, along with a description of the situation.
That day, she fell indoors and hit her head hard.
As luck would have it, she hit the door hinge, and it was apparently bad enough that blood spread across the floor. After an examination, there were no abnormalities found in her brain for the time being, but she was hospitalized for a few days just in case.
My mother had originally collapsed several years ago due to a subarachnoid hemorrhage,
and she has a clip in her head from the surgery she had back then.
Because of that, this hard blow was especially concerning.
The family must have been filled with great anxiety.
Fortunately, she was conscious when she was rushed to the hospital,
and with the diagnosis that the test results showed no abnormalities,
they were able to breathe a sigh of relief for the moment.
I had spoken to my mother on the phone that morning as well.
However, that day, after a quick greeting, I had ended the conversation by saying,
"Sorry, I have something to do today, so I'm going to hang up now. Talk to you tomorrow."
When my mother was healthy, I would often get annoyed by her constant calling,and I would even say harsh things to her.
I think I have changed too.
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💞 Feelings reach people, even if you can't meet. 💞
You might feel lonely because you can't talk on the phone while you're in the hospital, but you'll be fine because the nurses are there.
Even if we are far apart and cannot meet, we are connected.
It's okay, it's okay.
Even after she collapsed from the subarachnoid hemorrhage,
my mother was hospitalized frequently,
and every time, I would speak to my mother in my heart, chanting these words.
I would imagine my mother lying in her hospital bed.
As if responding to those thoughts,
she would overcome dangerous situations every time,
and recover.
That might just be a coincidence.
But I believe 🍀
She is someone who was able to recover this much from that subarachnoid hemorrhage.
And, as planned, she was discharged after about a week.
💞 End with a "Thank you" 💞
Even until now, whenever something happens,
✨The ordinary daily life is not something to be taken for granted ✨ I have been reminded of that.
However, eventually, that awareness fades away.
Every time my mother was admitted to or discharged from the hospital, it was a repetition of that.
Since that day, I have changed the last words of my phone calls with my mother
to ❤️ Thank you ❤️.
✨So that I won't have any regrets even if that call happens to be the last one ✨
I wish I could do this for anyone, at any time, and in any situation...
No matter how old I get, I am still immature.
However, people change. The future can be changed.
I will believe in this as I interact with others.
I will continue to strive every day.
Thank you for staying with me until the end.
May you have a wonderful day today.