What is this 'Creating a Map to Know Yourself' thing?
The new thing I've started,
"Creating a Map to Know Yourself"
to begin with,
・What is it?
・What do you mean by a map?
・Is it fortune-telling?
・Is it a personality test?
・Is it a psychological test?
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None of these are correct.
It doesn't fit into any existing genre.
As far as I can search,
I can't find a category for it.
◾️How I got started
I have a slight characteristic in my hearing.
I haven't received an accurate diagnosis yet, but
I likely have Auditory Processing Disorder.
When I did a self-diagnosis online before,
I was below average.
・What is Auditory Processing Disorder (APD)?
It is a characteristic where
“even though you can hear the sounds,
you cannot process them well as language.”
For example, even in conversations that
people around me can hear normally,
I sometimes cannot organize them well in my head, leading me to ask for repetition,
or I might not be able to recall the content later.
This is not a problem of ability,
but rather due to differences in how information is received and processed.
In other words, it feels more like
my brain works differently.
Because of this, I often find it easier to understand things
with written supplements, slow explanations,
or calm, face-to-face interactions.
My daily life is mostly fine.
So, embarrassingly, I didn't notice it at all
until I reached this age.
I realized it when I changed jobs
and started answering the company's main phone line.
It started when I thought,
“Huh? I heard and understood that just now,
but I've already forgotten the content...?”
Handling calls where the other person isn't in front of me.
On top of that, a situation where I couldn't predict
what kind of information would come flying at me.
Thinking about it now, it was a situation where the 'environment'
didn't suit me at all.
Looking back on it later,
I just didn't understand my own 'specifications'.
If I had known my 'specifications',
could I have avoided wasting effort
in choosing jobs or trying to adapt to environments?
That is what I started to think.
In the same way,
I feel that there are quite a few people
who are exhausted from continuing to work hard
in places that don't suit them.
In this world,
only a handful of people are thriving
in places that suit them.
Everyone else grinds their teeth every day,
giving it their all for their family or for their livelihood,
getting tired, losing motivation...
And then morning comes again, and they try their best with sheer willpower.
This loop.
I am completely the latter type.
I have had plenty of experiences
of being worn out in environments that didn't suit me.
The turning point was when I started using ChatGPT.
When I asked questions casually,
before I knew it, I was using AI
to organize my thoughts.
Why I get tired, what helps me recover,
what kind of environment suits me,
what kind of environment I drown in—I gradually
began to understand these things.
And ChatGPT tells me that
I am exceptionally
good at generating metaphors.
I'm not trying to use metaphors,
I'm just putting into words the images that pop into my head
during our conversation, that's all.
I verbalize those images and convey them to ChatGPT.
For example, I have:
・Difficulty with interruptions
・Inability to multitask
As I organized those words in my head,
I verbalized it as 'ground leveling that requires a specific order.'
It describes the feeling of everything becoming a mess
the moment the sequence is broken.
These become the parts of the 'map'.
By replacing words like this to make them easier to understand,
I visualize my own specifications.
Simply put,
it is 'the process of putting your own user manual
into words together.'
While we talk,
we look together at the flow and the blockages
within that person.
By asking questions,
and slightly refining the words that come out,
・Where you are getting stuck
・What kind of patterns exist
・Where you tend to feel burdened
we look at these things slowly.
Combining these is what
'Creating a Map to Know Yourself' is.
In reality, it's not about drawing a 'map',
but rather about writing out the terrain in words.
It's not about teaching you something,
but about gathering your past 'experiences' together
and organizing them.
So,
it's okay if you can't speak well.
It's even okay if you're just in a state of 'something feels off.'
・I'm tired but I don't know why
・I think I'm thinking, but I can't organize my thoughts
・I've started to not understand myself well
For people in such a state,
this might be a trigger to feel a little more at ease.
This new project was born
from the things I suffered with.
Right now, I am just polishing and building it up,
in the middle of increasing its precision.
I will continue to write about the activities of
'Creating a Map to Know Yourself' on note from time to time.
I would be happy if you became interested.
I think working hard is a wonderful thing.
But I also think you don't have to force yourself to
work hard on terrain that doesn't suit you.
I hope that there will be even a few less people
who feel that way.
Thank you for reading this far
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