Brewing tea in a prayerful morning
Good morning. Today is the day of the high school entrance exam results.
My fingertips staring at the smartphone screen feel like they are trembling just a little. My heart is beating louder than if it were my own, and I am in that unique atmosphere where the house feels strangely silent.
People in the world might call this a "crossroads in life," and judge all the hard work done so far based on a result of just two characters.
But right now, I am thinking about something else entirely.
The pathetic version of myself who got the hospital appointment wrong by a whole week the day before yesterday. The clumsy daily life where I was told at the reception, "It's next week," and returned home feeling small.
Because I live every day full of things that don't go according to plan, I want to send a silent cheer to the back sitting next to me right now.
No matter what result awaits, the value of the time you have built up so far will not change by even a millimeter. Whether you are happy because you "passed" or you stop in your tracks because you "failed," I want to embrace both versions of you completely.
Clever phrasing to be liked by someone, or flawless behavior. I feel that this "trembling time" itself, where we are nervous together like this, is more precious than such superficial things.
When the results are out, let's go drink a 300-yen coffee as usual. That quiet cup of time should rescue you from the noise outside and become a "calm" for you to regain your own heart.
Graduation and passing exams are nothing more than stops on a long, long journey to gradually become free from living a life defined by someone else's "correct answer."
No matter what sky you are under today, I hope you can believe in yourself and breathe quietly.
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