How to think on nights when you feel like you aren't growing
To start with the conclusion,
the nights you feel like you "aren't growing" are actually when you are growing the most.
That might sound a bit surprising.
But people who truly aren't growing
don't even think about whether they are growing in the first place.
The moment you stop to look back,
you are already looking forward more than enough.
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Growth is often invisible
We tend to think like this:
・No results = no growth
・No change = no meaning
・Not better than before = failure
But actual growth is much more subtle.
・The time spent feeling down has become shorter
・You've stopped pushing yourself too hard
・You've come to understand your own limits
These kinds of changes
are just hard to recognize as "growth" yourself.
But you are definitely different from before.
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Not feeling growth is proof of your sincerity
The more you feel like you aren't growing,
the more you expect from yourself.
"I should be able to do more"
"This isn't good enough"
The reason you can think that
is because you truly have the desire to improve.
People who aren't thinking about anything
don't even care if they are growing or not.
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Night is a time when growth becomes invisible
When night comes, your thoughts turn inward.
・Things you couldn't do
・Things you are lacking
・Differences between you and others
These are the only things that stand out.
But that is not because you are regressing,
it is because of the time of day that is night.
Night is a time when the heart becomes harsh.
You don't have to think of that as your "true ability."
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Growth is something you notice later
A few months or years from now, when you look back,
"That was a tough time"
"But I really did overcome it"
A day will come when you can think that.
Right now, you are just in the middle of it.
When you are in the middle of it,
it is natural not to know whether you are growing or not.
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One easy option
Decide that "today is a day where I don't have to grow."
Just by doing that, your heart can rest a little.
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Summary
• It is natural to feel like you aren't growing
• Change is slow and hard to see
• You are just in the middle of it right now
Even nights when you feel like you aren't growing
are still a proper part of your life.
That is enough for today.