Even with pain, you can walk toward happiness【Gentle Scars】
Introduction
Today, I am sharing a very small, yet certain realization that remained in my heart after one "major event."
Conversations with family can sometimes crash over you like unexpected waves, can't they?
Feeling bewildered, shaken, or having your mind drift off somewhere else...
I have gently turned the feelings I had in such a moment into a song.
I would be happy if the realization that emerged resonates a little with someone else's daily life.
Now, here are today's lyrics.
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LyricsGentle ScarsVerse 1
“I have something important to tell you.”
Those words
Swayed in my chest like a wave
bad thoughts drifting in —
no… it can’t be…
Are they planning to leave home?
A child… could it be……
Only my thoughts
Race through a windless sky
One breath
Then another
slow tide coming in
slow tide going out
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Pre-Chorus
“He wants to talk…”
In that moment again
A shadow crossed
And the sand in my heart stirred
But
Walking, just walking
breathing through the dark
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Chorus
Floating above the waves
My heart is still… yet trembling so
That I couldn't feel anything
Scared me just a little
But the light is sky-blue
As if faintly shining through
Only the life about to be born
Quietly made me stand still
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Verse 2
He kneels
With a trembling voice, “We’re having a child…”
I thought anger would burn
Yet—
My heart was a blank space
Just like thin clouds drifting
It just floated
My daughter says
“I want to keep this life.”
That voice
Was like a thin spring breeze
Fragile
But straight
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Pre-Chorus 2
“I cannot say whether
A life being born is good or bad.”
The words
Felt like they flowed slowly
From a distant shore
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Chorus
Floating above the waves
The rhythm of my breathing, disordered then returning
The only thing I could think for sure was
To create a warm place
For this life
That is surely
Our
first gentle step
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Bridge
soft light drifting through
Through the gaps in the cloudy sky
The future is still
barely visible
But you know
If you start walking, the wind changes
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Final Chorus
On the quiet sea
three shadows walking
Me, my daughter, and that little future
“Let’s celebrate,”
Those words
Slowly melt into the sky
For the life about to be born
Just for today, place a gentle light
On the table
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Outro
breath in
breath out
Like the waves
Accepting
That little miracle
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This song was born from an actual "important consultation from my daughter."
The moment she said, "I have something to tell you," my heart was instantly filled with all sorts of bad predictions.Even though nothing had happened yet, my thoughts ran wild as if I were being swallowed by the future.
At such times, if you suddenly return to your breathing, you can faintly return to the "here and now."
Just by doing that, I had the feeling that the height of the waves lowered a little.
When I accepted the words of my daughter and her partner, I thought my anger would explode, but instead, only a completely different, quiet blank space remained.
I was a little scared of "not feeling anything," but deep within that silence,
“
How to support the life being born
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Only that very simple and important question was gently floating there.
And the next day, we created a modest celebration time for the future.
There is anxiety, and there are many realistic challenges.
But first, I cherished the feeling of "wanting to celebrate together."A small step is truly mysterious, isn't it?You can move forward even while carrying your hesitation.⸻
Conclusion
In daily life, everyone has moments where their heart is stirred or their thoughts run wild.
At such times, just by returning to one breath, the scenery can change ever so slightly.
In your daily life, don't you have those "moments of small realization" too?
If you'd like, please gently share your experiences and feelings with me.
I would be happy if we could find the small lights in our days together.