A Story About Realizing the 'Basso Continuo' That Has Been Resonating Throughout My Life

Hello, this is haRu*☽.

Do you like Beethoven?

Music like Mozart's, which resonates beautifully in the court with a consistent melody, is nice, but I personally prefer Beethoven's melodies, which are overflowing with emotions like 'I want to express this as sound right now!'

I usually listen to popular music more than classical, but when I think, 'Oh, I want to listen to classical music,' I usually end up playing Beethoven's pieces ^^

And then, of course, there's Bach.
I feel sounds that seem to come from the world of the soul.

In the midst of all this, I suddenly realized something, so I'm going to write about it today.

I, whose way of expressing myself kept changing

Looking back, I was the type who often changed things in a short period, whether it was hobbies or work.

Between graduating from university and getting married, I experienced three workplaces.
Department store → Trading company → Publishing company.

I was hired as a full-time employee at all of them, so looking back now, I feel sorry for 'quitting in such a short time'... Sweat

As for hobbies, when I thought, 'I want to do this!', I would immediately start taking lessons and become completely absorbed in them, but there were many times when I would suddenly reach an end, thinking, 'Oh, that's enough.'

Once I experienced something and had the feeling that I had 'fully experienced' that world within myself, I would jump into the next new experience... I feel like I have truly had a variety of experiences by repeating that process.

My parents used to tell me, 'You can't keep doing things for a long time,' 'You get hot and cold easily,' and 'I wish you would focus on one thing more thoroughly.'

But I couldn't.
I didn't want to. lol

Since I was young, I've been free, or perhaps stubborn, in this regard; no matter what anyone said, I 'wouldn't do what I didn't want to do anymore,' and I was the kind of person who would 'jump at things I wanted to do!'

After getting married, I opened a tutoring school and a piano school at home, but I ended the tutoring school after about 11 years. When the feeling of 'the end' spreads inside, you can't resist it anymore. It is a completion.

The 'space' created by closing the tutoring school according to my intuition.

Because of this space, when the urge to 'open a home salon using my room at home!' arose later, I was able to realize it immediately.
I feel that this, too, was for the best for me.

At my home salon, I used 'crystal bowls,' which are instruments made of crystal, to conduct personal sessions and healing. I invited customers to my home for sessions at that home salon for about four years.

From halfway through, I started going out more to conduct aroma workshops, and naturally, my main work shifted to aroma-related tasks.

At this time, too, people around me might have thought, 'She's quit the crystal bowls and is into aroma now,' I suppose. ^^

Perhaps it was the influence of becoming busier with things like business trips over the years, but I developed sudden sensorineural hearing loss, and the way I heard piano sounds changed, so I ended up closing my piano studio as well...

Since I had continued the piano studio for about 20 years, it was the only thing that had lasted a long time for me.

From 2021, I began working as a consultant for online entrepreneurship.

Interacting with my students was very fun, and the time I spent consulting brought me great joy, but after a student said to me, 'You seem happier when you go off-topic and talk about the laws of the universe and goddess nature than when you are consulting,' I stopped accepting new students for my business school and went back to introspection...

From around the end of 2023, my work has been almost entirely on hiatus.

I can almost hear people saying, 'Wait? You just started consulting recently, and you've already quit?'

But, it can't be helped.
Because that is what my inner voice is saying.

My soul is one that doesn't accept things like 'In general society...' or 'Normally...' (What is 'normal' anyway? ^^) at all. Haha.

And now, I am spending my time leisurely while asking myself, 'So... how do I really, truly want to live the rest of my life?' and listening to the voice of my heart.

Even though what is visible on the surface changes, there was actually a theme that had been resonating the whole time.

When I looked back on my own life, I realized that even though the expressions (what appears on the surface = activities visible to others, or the nature of my work) have changed, there was 'something that has consistently continued to resonate.'

It was so incredibly simple that it was almost like a theme that had been resonating inside me as a matter of course for so long that one might ask, 'And so?'...

That was
'making the person in front of me happy'
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It was like a basso continuo, constantly resonating throughout my life's journey.

In basso continuo, generally only the melody of the bass part is indicated on the score, and the performer plays it by adding appropriate chords; this felt very fitting for explaining the development of my life.

The central theme that has always been flowing through my life is to make the person in front of me happy, which acts as the bass melody.

And I realized that, just as I felt 'I want to make this kind of person happy,' I was expressing (performing) my frequency at that time (the appropriate chord) in harmony with that theme (basso continuo) ^^

Through my tutoring school, the ones I wanted to make happy were the children.
Back then, I was also wishing for the children's happiness as I carefully taught them so they could enjoy learning and feel the joy of 'I get it!'

At my piano studio, I shared the joy and pleasure of playing music, hoping that 'even when these children grow up, music will be a time for them to feel happiness by thinking, "I love music! It's fun!"'

The reason I wanted to open a home salon was the desire to 'make moms smile.'

Thinking that 'if a mom is energetic at home, it should lead to the happiness of the whole family,' I have cherished the time spent looking at our hearts together.

Tutoring school, piano studio, home salon, therapist, consultant...

Although the way I express myself is different, seeing the happy expressions of the people I was involved with at the time was directly linked to my own happiness.

To make the person in front of me happy.

Saying 'to make someone happy' might be a bit presumptuous, but I believe that a cycle of 'giving and receiving happy feelings' truly occurs through our interactions ♡

I think I will continue to express the things I love, based on that sound (theme) that has been resonating all along.

What kind of sound is your basso continuo? ^^

A world where everyone can enjoy expressing themselves according to their heart at any given moment, within their own original accompaniment...

If each person lets their melody resonate and they harmonize into a magnificent, beautiful tune, that would surely be wonderful 🎵

haRu*☽