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🌟Continuing My Self-Introduction (Part 2) | To the me who believed 'You're clumsy' for decades. Labels from childhood can be removed as an adult.

Good evening, this is Miki❤️

This article is the second in a 5-part self-introduction series
“Continuing My Self-Introduction | How I reached the point of ‘Living every day with excitement and joy!’”
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“You’re clumsy.”

I believed that simple phrase for decades.

A casual remark made by an adult is very significant to a child, isn't it?🌀



1. The 'clumsy' label stuck on me in elementary school🏷️


When I was in the first grade of elementary school, there was a time when my teacher told me, “You’re clumsy.”

I also remember my grandmother saying the same thing.

Perhaps the people who said it didn't mean anything deep by it.

But as a child, I took those words as an assessment of myself.


I am clumsy.
I am someone who can't do things well.

And so, I stuck
a label🏷️ on myself.

For a long time after that, I feel like I started to subconsciously put the brakes on whenever I began something new or tried to take on a challenge.






2. The time in 6th grade when I was ignored without knowing why


Then, in the sixth grade of elementary school, I experienced something like “bullying” for the first time.

I started being ignored by a group of influential girls in my class.

I didn't know the reason.

I just kept going to school,
wondering “Why?” even while feeling that way.

I felt like I had lost if I didn't go to school, and
fortunately, I wasn't being ignored by the entire class,
so
I talked to kids in other groups and
somehow managed to get by.

A few months later, one of the girls who had been ignoring me
called me on the phone.

The reason was
that after a seat change, the boy she liked
ended up sitting next to me,
and I looked happy about it,
or something like that.

Even thinking about it now,
it's anticlimactically vague.

But for the person being bullied,
even if the reason is vague, the pain is real, isn't it?


3. I had defined myself by other people's words and the atmosphere


Looking back now, I feel like the me from back then

defined myself based on 'adults' words,'
'the atmosphere of the class,'
and 'how I was seen by those around me.'

The clumsy me,
the me who might be disliked,
the me who had to do things well.

But in reality,
a person's worth is not determined
by a single scene in childhood
or a single word from someone.

It's an obvious thing,
but the me back then didn't understand that.


4. Now, I can say different words to the me from back then


Now, I want to say this to the me from back then.

You weren't clumsy,
maybe you were just thorough.

Taking longer than others
might have been because you were feeling things properly.

Being sensitive to hurt
wasn't because you were weak,
but because you were sensitive to the atmosphere around you.

For a long time,
I thought the labels🏷️ I attached to myself as a child
were the truth.

But after I grew up, I realized

that labels🏷️ can be removed,
can be re-examined,
and can be rewritten.


5. Conclusion


The words we receive in childhood
stay with us longer than we think

That is precisely why, now that we are adults,
taking the time tore-examine those words☘️ is
something I believe is very important.

If a remark made to you long ago
is still holding you back somewhereeven now,

try stepping back a little
to see if those words were truly the truth


Within you, too,
is there a 'label of assumption'
that you have believed for a long time
🏷️'?



Next time, I will write about the transition from student life to the working world,
my longing for overseas, immersion in work, marriage, and divorce.
It will be about 'the era when working hard was my value'.

Thank you for reading until the end🌟

If any part of today's content resonated with you,
I would be happy if you could leave even a brief comment,
such as 'this part left an impression'
or 'I have had a similar experience'.

Please come back to read the rest if you'd like❤️


Click here for Episode 1↓


Series List

  • Episode 1|'I have nothing' was just an assumption ~My Origin~

  • Episode 2|To the me who believed 'You're clumsy' for decades. Childhood labels can be removed as an adult

  • Episode 3|Working hard was my value. From longing for overseas to divorce at 30

  • Episode 4|The day I couldn't breathe on a plane. Facing depression and graduating from the hospital at 49

  • Episode 5|Life can be re-edited from age 45. Flowers, AI, and Tarot moved my future

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