Slowly preparing for my [hospitalization] diary

Today, the weather was a bit more comfortable and it was easier to move around, so I tidied up the living room and dining room where I spend most of my time a little bit😊

I organized some papers, vacuumed, and washed Maron's🐶 blanket...!

It's only a little bit, but it feels much cleaner now♪

Actually, as I wrote in my diary before, I have a surgery scheduled for early August, which will require hospitalization.

So, I thought, maybe I should tidy up the house a little bit before I go in?😊

I've been suffering from endometriosis for a long time and have been managing it while keeping an eye on it for years...💧
But now, it's been decided that I'll have a hysterectomy😅

It was a positive decision for me, and since surgical methods have advanced, I feel safe and secure, but since it's a surgery in a somewhat delicate area, I'll refrain from going into details😂

It was decided about three months ago that I would have the surgery, so I've been doing various things like tests and taking medication in preparation for it.

Even then, I didn't get particularly sensitive or anything, and I just went through it calmly...💦

But as the date gets closer, the feeling of 'Will I be okay?' has started to grow a little bit😢

On my last visit, I was given instructions for hospitalization and some documents I needed to fill out, and they told me, 'Please make sure to remove your nail polish, as it can interfere with the surgery'😱

I had my toenails done at the beginning of last month, and I even made an appointment to have them redone so I could wear sandals cutely all summer...😢

I had to call them and say, 'I have to remove my nail polish, so could I just come in to have it taken off?'

It was a little sad to have them cleaned off just the other day😂

After doing that, it really hit me that 'Oh, I'm really having surgery...'

After that, I happened to have appointments for a dental cleaning and a hair salon, so it started to feel like everything was a countdown to my hospitalization!
It started to feel like a big deal to me.

I guess I'm just a bit timid after all...😅

But at the same time, I'm also finding myself a little excited, thinking, 'How should I spend my free time while I'm in the hospital?'🤭

It looks like I'll be in the hospital for about 5-6 days, so I've been gathering the necessary items, and today I downloaded some dramas and anime I'd like to watch while I'm there from the video streaming app on my iPad🤭

Maybe I'll bring a few books too📚

It seems like rehabilitation and such will start the day after the surgery, so maybe I won't have that much time to be so relaxed...🤣

If I don't have at least a little bit of "excitement"
I feel like I'll be crushed by the "nervousness," so I'm going to at least prepare to enjoy it✨

That said, I still have some time, so I might continue to struggle with my feelings a few more times.

But, it's something I decided myself!
In the end, I'll steel myself and face the surgery😊

To everyone who has read my rambling thoughts up to this point, thank you for bearing with me🙏

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