"Living in Comfort" - The Day I Forgave My Non-Striving Self -

"I'm trying so hard, yet I feel so miserable."
To those who feel this way

I should be able to do more...
If I don't earn, it's meaningless...
If you are wrapped in such feelings of impatience...
To you, who have been doing your best,
this is a poem I want to gently share.

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I used to be someone who
thought that if I didn't earn, it was meaningless.

Somewhere deep down,
I thought money determined my worth,
and before I knew it, I was using someone else's "ruler"
to measure my own existence,
blaming myself for what I couldn't do.

One day,
it was so painful, so painful,
I grew to hate that version of myself,
and I stopped trying so hard.

It's okay if I can't do anything.
I was just there.

As time passed slowly,
calmly and gently,

I suddenly realized.

Oh,
I... am no longer
bound by that.

Yes,
before I knew it,
I had stepped out of the frame of "I must earn."

Being able to earn is wonderful, but
even if I don't earn, I am still me.

Not just in words, but as a feeling,
it settled deep within my body.

Worth is not a label stuck on from the outside.
For me to be comfortable,
that is more important than anything else.

From the top of my head to the tips of my toes,
I felt a strange sensation of being repainted by a new me,
and being filled up.

From "I must try hard"
to "It's enough to be comfortable."

When I changed the direction of my life like that,
the world matched that new wave.

I don't have to blame the me from back then anymore.
Because the me from back then
was also searching for love in the best way she knew how.

So, now,
I want to gently tell myself.

It's okay.
I can choose my own comfort.

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I tried using Nano-Banana~!
Amazing! Noah is fixed in place... ( *´艸｀) So moved~♪

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