When light shines on your inner voice, you can see your true feelings that even you didn't understand

At first,
you may not even be able to put into words
what is troubling you.

You are getting through your days just fine.
You are working.
You are taking care of things at home.
You are able to smile in front of others.

And yet,
there is a heaviness deep in your chest.

You don't know the reason,
but your heart never feels light.
You feel as if something has come to a standstill.

In that state,
some people come to receive healing.

When they start talking,
the person themselves
may not yet realize their own true feelings.

It's not really that big of a deal, but...

Maybe I'm just overthinking things.

I don't really want to blame anyone.

As they say that,
they search for words little by little.

Then,
in an unexpected moment,
the feelings hidden behind their voice can become visible.

They weren't angry,
they were actually lonely.

They weren't lost,
they actually already had the answer.

They weren't unable to move forward,
they had just been holding back for too long,
and their heart had become unable to move.

When they realize that,
people fall silent for a moment.

And then,
as if exhaling slowly,

Ah, that might be it.

They sometimes say.

In that moment,
a great miracle does not necessarily occur.

However,
you can feel that what was tightly knotted inside your heart
has loosened just a little.

"I wasn't angry, I just wanted to be understood."

"I was pretending to be fine, but I was actually struggling."

"I thought it was my fault, but I was actually sad."

In this way, the true feelings that you didn't even know were there gradually turn into words.

After those words come out, your expression sometimes changes.

A tense face suddenly softens.

The tension in hands that were tightly clenched quietly fades away.

After the tears fall, you become able to smile a little.

I have witnessed that change many times.

Life does not change dramatically immediately after healing.

But, the way you see yourself changes a little.

Until then,

"Because I am weak"
"Because I cannot endure it"
"I should just try harder"

People who thought these things,

"I have been trying my best all this time"

"It was good that I didn't pretend these feelings didn't exist"

"It's okay to treat myself a little better"

They begin to change the words they say to themselves.

This is very significant.

When light shines on the inner voice, what you see first might not be "what you really want to do," but rather "what you were really feeling."

I was actually lonely.
I was actually scared.
I was actually frustrated.
I was actually tired.
Actually, I wanted someone to understand.

When you realize that,
your heart feels a little more at ease.

When you can see the reason why you were suffering,
the urge to blame yourself weakens.

"That's why it was so hard."
"That's why I couldn't move forward."
"That's why I felt so uneasy all this time."

When you can think that way,
a little bit of space returns to your heart.

After receiving healing,
clients sometimes say to me,

"How did you know?"

"That is exactly how I feel right now."

"I feel like I'm going to cry."

"There really was someone who understood my feelings."

I sometimes receive words like these.

Every time I do,
I think that the voice of that person's heart
had been inside them all along.

It's just that,
amidst the busyness, endurance, and responsibilities,
they had simply become unable to notice it themselves.

When you can see your true feelings that even you didn't understand,
it doesn't mean you suddenly become strong.

But,
you can be a little kinder to yourself.

You don't have to force yourself to smile.
You don't have to carry everything on your own.
You don't have to keep living up to someone else's expectations.
You can listen to your own feelings a little more.

That small realization
can sometimes change the choices you make from here on.

And finally,
when a client's face looks a little more at ease,
or they suddenly show a smile,
I feel truly happy.

Every time I see that smile,
I feel glad that I could share that time with them.

Chie's healing
is not a time for forcing answers upon you.

It is time to gently shine a light
on the voice deep within your heart.

By noticing your true feelings that even you didn't know,
you may feel like you can cherish yourself a little more.

If I can be the catalyst for that,
I would be very happy.

To those who are working hard without even knowing what is painful right now.
You don't have to carry the unspoken voice of your heart all by yourself.

Chie
Compass of Droplets

Thank you for reading until the end.

To those who are working hard alone,
without even knowing what is painful right now.

May this be a time when the voice of your heart
can be gently unraveled, even just a little.

And,
may these words
reach those who need them.