Self-Introduction: Why I, a Nobody, Write on Note

Nice to meet you. I'm Matu.

After writing so many notes, I'm finally doing a self-introduction.

While looking back at my notes wondering what to write next, I suddenly realized.
Wait, I haven't introduced myself yet.

Oh? I haven't introduced myself.

I've been running along while leaving readers wondering, 'What kind of person is writing this?', so I'd like to take this opportunity to write a little about myself.

I am an ordinary housewife who is studying design while raising children.

Even though I say 'I want to make design my career' now,
the path to get here was by no means smooth.

I would look for jobs and apply, only to be rejected.

I would apply again, and be rejected again.

Before I knew it, I had been turned down by over 100 companies and projects.

I thought, 'Maybe this is impossible,' many times.

They say that as you get older, new challenges become more difficult.

It's scary to fail, and sometimes I feel down when I compare myself to others.

Even so, the reason I continue to take on challenges is that I thought I would regret it even more if I just gave up without doing anything.

A few years from now,

'I wish I had done it back then'

I didn't want to become that kind of person.

Even if it's just a small step, I want to choose my own path and move forward.

With that thought in mind, I started studying design.

And recently, I was able to receive my first reward of 500 yen.

In terms of money alone, it is not a large amount.

However, for someone like me who was rejected by over 100 companies, those 500 yen were a bigger step than I could have imagined.

It was in the midst of such days that I started this note.

When I spend my days in a rush, I forget what I felt and what I was thinking.

Chasing after new information, I sometimes leave my own feelings behind.

That is why I decided to stop and leave my thoughts in words.

Days when I couldn't give it my all.

Days when things didn't go well.

Days when I moved forward just a little bit.

Things about raising children.

Things about studying design.

Sometimes things about Mercari.

And, the honest feelings I had at those times.

This note is like a record book for me.

If there is anyone out there who is struggling in the same way or taking on a challenge, I would be happy if this place could help you relax a little.

I am still halfway there, but I intend to keep writing at my own pace.

Thank you for reading this far.

I look forward to connecting with you from here on.