Giuseppe
I went to see it. The Obsessed Man.
Starting with Sano-chan. As someone who can't watch romance-themed things, I thought I might get jealous of Moka-chan even just from the voice (lol). It was Sano's voice, but it was Giuseppe. That was definitely Giuseppe. Sano-chan's face kept popping into my head while he was speaking, but it was so naturally Giuseppe. It's strange, isn't it? The two of them overlapping.
I didn't really have much intention of seeing it, but with all the recent chaos, I found myself wanting to see it no matter what. I didn't want to watch it on TV or on my smartphone; I wanted to be bathed in Ae! I wanted to feel Ae!. I thought The Obsessed Man would make that happen. I wanted to go to a space like a movie theater, where there's no noise. I was also grateful that the timing worked out for me to go see it. You know, right from the start, I thought, 'Oh, that's Sano's voice,' and then, Sano's voice, Giuseppe's lines, felt like they were speaking directly to me. It was kind. It was a kind world. Richard popped into my head many times. Taisei popped into my head. Ae! popped into my head, then faded, melted away, and I felt like I touched a kind feeling. I prayed for Richa-kun's health and happiness, and I felt like I had met the cute youngest member.
I think I was witnessing a miracle. The six of them from 2019 until that day were probably a miracle. Their hard work, their humor, their sparkle, their swagger, their signature bickering—everything they did was interesting, they left their mark, and the fact that they showed us that, that I was able to see it, was a miracle. I thought it would last forever. But, looking back at before and now, I realized that nothing lasts forever, and that I forget things so easily. I really thought, 'What a fool I am.' Apparently, expectations disrupt the autonomic nervous system.
Because my own life is more important than anything, I want to take care of myself. When I'm struggling with work or about to explode from raising children, the things I love are what help me. That is Ae!. So, I don't want to disrupt my autonomic nervous system. It's sad. It's frustrating. Because I was obsessed, losing things is sad. I lost them once, and then I lost them again. And then, the feelings I had closed off came overflowing out, and I wanted to see the six of them again.
So, I will decide. I will set my axis, saying, 'This is how I am.' There are no answers written on X. We have no way of knowing the truth except for official messages. One, if the next live concert is decided, I will definitely apply. Two, I will cherish the life right in front of me. Yes, for me, my children and my family are more important than anything. I won't neglect them. Three, I still love Ae!. Four, I will join the fan club when it's created. I'll just say it clearly now. If you had stayed as six, one fan club would have been enough! Goodness, it costs so much money! Lol. I'll join, the third one, I'll join, okay? Five, I will write fan letters. I want to tell them, 'I love you,' and 'Thank you.'
I love the six of you. Even if the form changes, I love you. I am grateful to the four who continue to carry the name Ae!. And I love Taisei and Richa too. Thank you. Thank you for the world where the six of you live.
Only time can heal the heart, and no one knows what the future holds. Maybe we will cross paths again someday, or maybe that won't come true. I won't have expectations, but because I love you, I will support you. In the form of fan letters. In the form of being a fan club member. I will provide the support that I can.
I'm glad I watched The Obsessed Man. Thank you for making me feel such a kind emotion. I properly acknowledged the feeling that I love the six of you. Wanting to see you, watching the same YouTube videos over and over—it's because I love you.
Taisei saying 'Huh' was the beginning of me falling for Ae!. Richasue, Kusamacaron Yoshinori, Richajima, Chaipa, Dorkies, Kusamasaya, Bibache, Sanoche, Sueche. Every combination, truly, all of them, I love them so much. I want to see you. I want to see you. I want to see the six of you again.
Haha, I've loved you since you were six! What a lucky person I was to be able to watch that in real-time. I love the Ae! that was formed by the six of you in 2019 by Kojiken. I will love you forever, in 2025, and in 2026 too.
Today, I was saved by The Obsessed Man. Thank you, Sano-chan. It was a very lovely singing voice. Cielo was cute, and Pechka was also wonderfully lovely.
Please keep singing forever and ever.