For those who want to rest but cannot

Hello, this is Maru.

“I want to take a break, but I just can't...”
“Even when I'm not feeling well, I end up taking on work...”

For those who want to rest but cannot,I think this is a common experience.

I also couldn't rest,
and there was a time I worked while on an IV drip.

For those who are able to rest,
I imagine this is hard to understand.

You might think,
“If you want to rest, why don't you just say so?”
but expressing how difficult things are
requires as much resolve as
jumping off the stage at Kiyomizu Temple.

That is why, even if I want to rest, I cannot say it.

People who cannot rest
are also fully aware
that they should just say they want to rest.

They know that work will go on
even if they don't sacrifice themselves,
and they likely have a vague awareness
that they are gaining a sense of security
by being useful to someone else.

Even so,
if the fear that they might fall apart if they aren't working hard,
or the fear that they might lose their place, becomes too great,
they cannot bring themselves to say it.

The reason I became able to rest was because

【Decide for yourself that you will rest. If you keep the promise you made to yourself, then you have accomplished something.】

I was taught that.

Taking time off work suddenly
has a high hurdle,
so I started by creating time to rest in my daily life.

For example, I decide that Sunday morning
is my “time to do nothing.”

Once I decide, I do nothing.

I even step away from my smartphone and“do nothing.”

“Doing nothing.”
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This is the key point.

Since I was able to keep the promise I made to myself,
I was able to “rest.”

Compared to when I would just waste time without deciding anything,
the way the fatigue leaves my body is completely different.

Since the number of things I have accomplished has increased,
there is no guilt either.

In this way, I make the guilt
associated with resting smaller.

Once I became able to do this,
I stopped pushing myself so hard.

Because you will have time to rest,
both your mind and body will feel at ease,
and you will come to understand
how important it is to make time to rest.

[Decide for yourself to rest and take that rest]

With just this,
the guilt you feel about resting will decrease,
so please give it a try.

Thank you
for reading until the end.

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it would be a great encouragement for the future!