【Poet UTAKO's Emotional Analysis #03 / Why do I feel unable to move the day after being obsessed with something?】

Poet UTAKO's Emotional Analysis #03

Why do I feel unable to move the day after being obsessed with something?

This is what UTAKO's brain looks like when inspiration is flowing and won't stop.

Before I knew it,

hours had passed.

Making videos.

Choosing images.

Thinking of prompts.

Making corrections.

Making more.

Ideas popping up one after another.

It's fun.

I want to make more.

I want to make it better.

I want to express more.

It was an exhilaration I hadn't felt in a long time.

I was so absorbed that I forgot the time.

And yet.

It was the moment I finished.

I have a headache.

I feel nauseous.

My body feels heavy.

I don't even have the energy to stand up.

Even though it was so much fun just a moment ago.

Why is that?

I was supposed to be doing something I love.

Why am I unable to move?

I thought about things like that.

—

Actually,

there are quite a few people like this.

Once they start doing something they love, they can't stop.

They get obsessed.

They forget the time.

And then.

They collapse afterward.

They stay in bed.

They become unable to move.

They feel self-loathing.

"I overdid it again."

they say.

But I think.

Because you love it,

you can't stop.

—

When people find something they truly love,

they become less aware of fatigue.

The body is tired.

The eyes are tired.

The brain is tired.

But,

the heart is happy.

Therefore,

you don't notice.

That you have exceeded your limits.

It's as if.

Like a child playing with all their might.

Until they are told,

"It's time to go home now,"

they forget hunger and fatigue.

It's close to that feeling.

However.

It's a little different when you become an adult.

When you were a child,

your parents would stop you.

But when you become an adult,

there is no one to stop you.

Therefore.

You have to stop yourself.

That is surprisingly difficult.

Especially.

People who are used to working hard.

People who have lived by meeting expectations.

People who have prioritized what they should do

over their own limits.

Those are the people who

don't notice.

The signs from their body.

Headache.

Nausea.

Drowsiness.

Lethargy.

Apathy.

The body has been,

telling you for a long time.

"Please rest a little more."

—

But we,

don't listen very often.

Because.

We are better at moving forward

than resting.

We are more used to working hard

than stopping.

And,

one more thing.

Actually,

there are also people who are afraid to stop.

When you are doing something,

you can feel at ease.

When you are creating.

When you are learning.

When you are being useful to someone.

In those moments,

there is a moment where you can feel your worth.

But.

When it becomes time where you are doing nothing.

You suddenly feel anxious.

Am I okay?

Is this alright?

Am I moving forward properly?

Therefore,

you keep moving.

You keep working hard.

Even with things you love,

you keep running at full speed.

And.

One day,

your body stops first.

In the form of a headache or nausea.

As if,

pressing the forced shutdown button.

—

I think.

What people who suffer from doing what they love need is,

not to work harder.

It's not to rest more either.

Surely.

I think it's learning that "it's okay to stop."

It's okay to have days where you don't create.

It's okay to have days where you don't move forward.

It's okay to have days where you don't produce anything.

Even so,

your value does not decrease.

—

In order to continue doing what you love.

Rather than running at full speed.

Learning to sit down along the way.

That might not be laziness,

but a technique to make your talent last longer.

—

If you are suffering right now even though you are doing what you love.

That is,

not because you lack passion.

It's actually the opposite.

I think you were just that serious about it.

So today.

Let's rest just a little.

To enjoy the continuation

next time✨

END

Click here for episodes 1 and 2💁‍♀️

Click here for the anxious attachment romance novel series💁‍♀️

So, I've been keeping up with my daily note, but I've decided to take one day off a week☺️👏Clap clap

Once I decided to rest, I felt like playing😍

I tried out Wan-Rabi's prompt💖

Here are the results🌈✨

It's incredibly playful😍
A tambourine that wants to be loved is too fun😆