365 Consecutive Days of Posting Completed: My Gratitude for the Year and a Listen to My Emotional Turmoil
Good evening, it's Tenko.
After work, I couldn't hold it in anymore inside the car and let out a fart that smelled so explosive I almost passed out. (I'm so done with this person)
Well then,
365 days of daily posting are over.
By the way, the commemorative 365th post was the Anpanman chaos review from the day before yesterday.
I have no regrets.
As for the results of these 365 days, or rather,
the data. I'll show you a little bit.
The top is the analysis for the last month, and
the bottom is the analysis for the first month after starting note.
That's two digits off, hey...
And here is the current cumulative access count.
...Ugh (tears of joy).
Next are the congratulatory boards.
I received 114 of them over this past year.
I feel it every week that so many people are stopping by.
Thank you very much.
To begin with, let me talk about why I was posting for 365 days.
It was sheer stubbornness (Can't you say something nice for once?)
However, this Tenko-san who is writing this article.
As you all know
I am not a creator who had any particular goals when starting on note.
C-creator, you say! Hehe! That sounds so cool!!! (Get a grip)
Yeah... I just simply thought, 'I'll try updating for 365 days!'
So, here are my thoughts on posting for 365 days.
There were many times along the way when I thought about quitting.
I reached the limits of my vocabulary.
Days when I couldn't write well,
days when I ended up with incredibly boring writing,
and days when I didn't even know what I was saying in my own articles (a decline in intelligence).
There are many other things, too,
but in the midst of all that,
there were people who came to see every single article.
There are even fierce warriors who hit the 'like' button the moment I post.
And the comments on my articles were a huge source of vitality for me.
Even if you didn't intend to support me,
I felt supported by you all on my own.
Thanks to all of you, I was able to post for 365 days. Thank you.
By the way,
When you're raising a child, you always come across
the devilish three-month mark
, right?
Well, this
exists on note as well.
(Based on my own research) (Number of people researched: 1 (Tenko))
It really happens every month starting around the three-month mark, so I might as well introduce it to you.
- The devilish three-month mark
It feels like more people are watching!
I'm so happy! Yay! Woohoo!
Symptom: Abnormally high tension
The devilish 4th month
Wait, what?! My numbers are skyrocketing on more articles! I'm a pro, aren't I?! Yeah!
Symptom: Significant delusions of grandeur
The devilish 5th and 6th months
What am I supposed to write... I have no idea...
Symptom: Sudden loss of vocabulary
The devilish 7th month
Anpanman... Anpanman... Please be my friend too, not just love and courage...
Symptom: Being saved by Anpanman
The devilish 8th month
This article is great! -> Post -> Views plummet
This article is no good -> Post -> Views increase
I don't get it, I don't understand everyone's feelings at all.
Symptom: Looking up at the sky.
・The devilish 9th month
I feel like going on strike by myself, thinking there's no way I have that much material in my daily life,
but since I'm doing this on my own accord in the first place, I just end up holding my head in my hands alone.
And then, when I suddenly calm down, a surprising number of daily topics emerge.
I start to feel a slight sense of fear toward the mechanism of my own brain.
Symptom: Syndrome of periodically trying to go on strike
・The devilish 10th month
Every time I update my note, the platform praises me, saying "It's amazing that you've kept it up!" but
even though I should have been happy at first, by this time, the number of days I spend picking fights with the screen increases, thinking, "Are you provoking me? You want to go? Huh?"
Symptom: Getting angry at note, which hasn't done anything wrong
・The devilish 11th month
No one told me to keep updating,
and no one said I had to write articles of at least 1,000 characters,
yet because I made these rules for myself, I find myself spiraling into despair.
And now, as I finally approach the end, a nonsensical feeling of 'I don't want it to end' has started to well up.
Symptom: Emotional Rebellion
・The Devilish 12th Month
The finish line is finally in sight, but
I've developed a mysterious case of being difficult and have gone into strike mode again.
As I hit the final stretch at day 360, I fell into the worst slump of my life.
As I mentioned here,
I make sure to always include metaphors and self-deprecating humor in my articles.
But during my slump, nothing I typed felt right,
and every time I added a self-deprecating remark, I would retort to myself, 'What's even funny about this?' and end up feeling depressed all on my own—a truly bizarre state.
Symptom: Weak at the Last Sprint
🌊 Extra Edition
・Day 365
I gathered materials for the chaotic Anpanman episode filled with dogs to create my commemorative 365th-day article, but
of all days, a system error bug occurred on Note.
Every time I type, the message "Cannot perform operation" accuses me.
I thought it had come to stop me from creating buggy articles, but
the note management team isn't that free.
Aiming for the gap between bugs and glitches, I somehow managed to complete and post the article.
As expected, the content of the article was also quite buggy.
・Day 366
After successfully finishing 365 days, I tried to create a "I'm done! Yay!" article, but
something didn't feel right to me,
so I kept creating and deleting it during my work breaks.
I repeated this over and over.
While I was doing that, my shift ended,
and only an article of about 250 characters remained.
Well, I thought optimistically that I would just rewrite it with an empty head after my son fell asleep.
And then, last night
Perhaps because I sing too much every day,
even though he hasn't started speaking yet, my son started humming.
(I would like to write an article about this at a later date.)
While I was surprised by this act that skipped so many steps,
the humming ballad started playing unfamiliar music while leaning his hand against the wall.
Is he trying to become Ken Hirai or something?
By the way, the time was just before 11:00 PM.
I decided to pretend to be asleep in the pitch darkness while listening to my son's humming.
It was my "he'll give up and go to sleep if I fall asleep" strategy.
And then
When I woke up, it was morning. (The reason I didn't post yesterday)
So,
I completely fell asleep.
However, since I intended to put an end to the daily updates anyway,
I wonder if falling asleep yesterday was a good thing in a way.
If there was anyone who noticed that Tenko didn't post yesterday,
then I think it was worth doing the daily updates.
So,
I will still be here on note,
but the daily updates are, for now, finished.
...That said, I'll probably still show up frequently, though? (I'm the lonely type)
I thought about forcing myself to keep it going every day with something like a three-line diary, but that doesn't fit my style, so I won't be doing that.
I also have no intention of changing the content of my updates.
I will continue to post whatever I like, just as I am. I don't think the timing will be much different from now either.
I've written at length, but
once again,
please continue to support Chibi-no-suke and Tenko.
I love you all. Thank you so much, always.
Tenko.