I damaged my kidneys, but I'm living my life without breaking it [213]

I want to be an adult who gets happy or sad over the 'Chiikawa Fortune' on the train

Due to the nature of my work, I have relatively frequent opportunities to ride the train.

When I get a bit tired of looking at my smartphone while traveling, I find myself spending more time gazing at the LCD screen above the train doors.

At such times, the screen suddenly changes.

What begins is the 'Chiikawa Fortune'.

Cute characters move around and tell me my fortune for the day.

Even though it's a small piece of information that I would normally pass by in a few seconds, for some reason, I can't take my eyes off it.

What rank is my zodiac sign?

What kind of advice is written for today?

Before I know it, I find myself staring intently at the screen.

If it shows that I'm in first place, I feel a little happy, even though it's just that.

'Maybe something good will happen today'

Holding onto such groundless expectations, my steps feel a little lighter.

Conversely, if I'm in last place,

'Oh well'

I feel just a little bit down.

And then, I notice myself trying to secretly memorize the lucky item, and I have to laugh a little.

It's just a few seconds of fortune-telling playing on a train.

But in those few seconds, my feelings shift just a little.

When I think about it, it's a strange thing.

As you grow up, you learn to look at things calmly.

Not expecting too much.

Not getting carried away by every little thing.

Not being swayed by emotions.

That may indeed be important.

However, I feel it's a bit sad to just let everything pass by as "mere information."

Being able to feel happy about small things, or feeling a little disappointed.

The fact that such sensations still remain within me might not be a bad thing.

I find myself slightly moved by a small character moving on a screen.

I want to be an adult who has that much room to spare.

Today, too, I gaze at the LCD screen while being swayed on the train.

If I'm in first place, I think, "Maybe today will be a good day," and if I'm in last place, I smile and think, "Well, some days are like that."

And then, I head back toward my usual daily life.