Go with the flow = It's okay if things go according to your own unique scenario!

Being able to "go with the flow"little by little was something that happened from my mid-30s to late 30s.
Until then, I was desperate to try and manage everything myself! (lol)
I was struggling, flailing, and going through a lot of hardship.

One unpleasant thing after another happened, as if to say, "Take that! And that!"
"Why? Why do these terrible things only happen to me?"
The mystery only deepened.
My friends would even say, "You really do always have so much going on, don't you?"
"What's next?" It often became a topic for jokes like that (lol).

The people involved, the events, and the places changed each time, but
the unpleasant things, the painful things, and the negative feelings they caused
were the same every time.

Conflicts between relatives, workplace relationships, being saddled with only troublesome work,
always dealing with eccentric people or troublemakers,
the thing that crushed me the most was job hunting.
I met all the requirements, the recruitment agent strongly recommended me, this time for sure!
And yet, the final result was always a thud... crushed 💦
Even though I had met all the rather difficult requirements!
I had to raise two children on my own, so I was even more desperate.
Therefore, the level of being crushed went up significantly.
Right after I was at my peak of being crushed, both my son and I caught the flu,
a triple punch 😓
If I start writing about this area, it will get long, so I'll stop here 💦

When such things happened repeatedly, I became exhausted,
"I can't do anything about it myself anymore..."
I started to give up.
Finally! At last! (bitter smile)

But that was by no means negative,
"Even though I'm trying so hard, I get crushed every time, so
maybe it's better not to do it, maybe that's not the path, maybe it's not necessary,
is that what it is?"
The natural flow of lifeI finally started to realize that there is such a thing!
That's what it was.

When you experience many things and get hurt many times, you
begin to understand little by little.
" I want to grow! I want to learn!"
Because I am always thinking that strongly,
I am given challenges one after another.
Various things happen along with that.

Unfortunately, humans don't learn unless they go through painful, difficult, and hurtful experiences~ 😣
No pain, No gain!

With all that, I finally realized that there is a flow,
I came to think that the scenario of my life is already written,
and when I was able to leave it to that flow, it became much easier.

・Although it wasn't what I wanted to do, my job change was decided smoothly.
・The new workplace was a place that was easy to work in.
・My income increased.
・I was able to move.
・The place I moved to was very easy to live in, and the landlord was a very good person.
・It became closer to my sons' school and my workplace, making my commute easier.
・I kept winning in "lotteries," and when I applied for free concert tickets,
　preview tickets, etc., I kept winning. etc.

When I remember those days, things like this happened very often.

Things go smoothly when you go with the flow.

When you experience this for yourself,
"Ah, I will just go with this flow."
I can truly think that.

I think I will ride on a big ship and just flow along.
According to my own unique scenario.

~To those who read until the end~
Thank you from the bottom of my heart 😊

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