The Nanhana Party, and the Story After

From the first party to the third, the fun time flew by in an instant.
There were so many people I didn't even get to talk to or greet. I don't usually get shy around people, but I'm a bit of a gloomy person at heart, and for some reason, that side of me came out this time. I kept thinking, 'They probably don't even know who I am,' and ended up not being able to talk to them...

I regretted it later, thinking that opportunities like this don't come around very often.
Ugh, even though I have blonde hair! What a disappointment I am (´༎ຶོρ༎ຶོ`)

And so, the party concluded entirely in Shibuya and wrapped up around 8:00 PM.

I, ayamo, had anticipated this and booked a hotel near the venue.
I don't look like someone who is always rushing around, but I must say, my planning was perfect. Hmph♡

Omika and Radi saw me off to the hotel...

I was so reluctant to part ways that I don't know how many times the elevator came and went.

We didn't really have anything specific to talk about, but the time just drifted by as we felt like we didn't want to leave each other yet.
I'm lonely.
I'm lonely, but I have a feeling we'll meet again.

Thank you both. I love you.

You know that hotel we stayed at in a rush with the family last time?
We came all the way to Tokyo only to end up eating Sukiya for dinner, and breakfast was a bust too, which was sad...?

So, you see...

I took this opportunity to go all out and book a stylish hotel.
Husband, thank you!!! Kids! Mommy is having a great time, hahahaha!!!!!

All alone in a stylish hotel in Shibuya.

It's incredibly fun. What a sense of freedom!

Today, I don't have to do the kids' baths, brush their teeth, do laundry, cook, or take out the trash... nothing at all! Yahoo!!

What are the bathroom and shower like? What's behind this door? I wonder if I can see the night view~♡ Sigh, I'm just going to dive right into bed!

Poof

Phew...

And so, as the excitement settled down, I realized something.


I was just with everyone in the back alley, but...

Suddenly, I'm all alone in this hotel...


Wait, I'm feeling intensely lonely.



And
I also have a splitting headache.

Did I get too excited and drink too much?
I made sure to drink plenty of water in between, too...

Plus, the forecast for the next day was rain.
I decided to take some headache medicine and take a walk alone through the Shibuya night to a nearby convenience store to buy an umbrella.

Even though it's a night in Tokyo, I didn't have the courage or energy to wander around Shibuya all by myself, so I just bought an umbrella and hurried back to the hotel.

The medicine didn't work at all, and my head was still pounding.
However.
Wanting to savor the lingering feelings of the day, I searched for Leemo-san's Stand.fm channel and immersed myself in the archive of the party live stream.

I'm lonely.
It was fun, but I'm so lonely...

And thus, ayamo's night in Tokyo alone deepened.

The next morning.

Once again, I'm having a stylish breakfast at a stylish restaurant.

Everything I see is so stylish,
the pancakes are as fluffy as clouds,
and there's even a handsome Black man with dreadlocks who looks like a UNIQLO model sitting at the table behind me.

Isn't this exactly what coming to Tokyo is all about?

My heart is so full I could cry. Today, I'm meeting a friend who moved from my hometown to live in Tokyo.

We talked a lot about each other until my time was up.
My friends are all such kind people; whenever I tell them about what's happened in my family over the past few years, they say, 'You've worked so hard,' and cry for me.

I also find myself tearing up when I talk about how painful things were to someone I can trust.
But I know that by crying like that, I'm healing myself.

I was so happy to see you.
I'm not good at inviting people myself, but I'm glad I reached out.

After parting ways with my friends with a heavy heart, I went shopping by myself until it was time for my bus.

I wonder how long it's been since I last went shopping in the city all by myself, really and truly?
I can't spare even a minute for that when I'm out with my family (you can guess why, right? Haha), and in the first place, going to the city just for my own shopping wasn't even an option anymore.

Everywhere I looked, it was a dazzling and glittering world.
Every shop smelled stylish and good, and there were shop assistants who looked like models, about two meters tall.
The city and the people are so sophisticated; this is what you call TOKYO...!!!

While feeling overwhelmed, this country bumpkin with a heavy load walked around the floor pretending like I come here every week, and I indulged in the kindness of my husband who gave me some pocket money and got a cute pair of loafers on sale.

After that, I went to Takashimaya and chose the most delicious-looking sweets as a souvenir, thinking of the faces of my beloved family.

I tried to act early so I wouldn't have to rush around.

And then I arrived at the bus stop 30 minutes early.

What a smooth trip it was?
What is all that usual rushing around about?
When I'm alone, I don't have to rush at all!!
It's unbelievably smooth...!!!

The bus arrived 15 minutes before the scheduled departure time, so I boarded early and decided to wait for departure gracefully in the cool cabin.

I sat in my seat, looked back at the photos of memories from yesterday and today, and peeked at everyone's notes...

It was so much fun.
It ended in the blink of an eye.
I feel lonely.
It's almost time to leave...

Suddenly, when I looked at the bench outside where I had been sitting just a moment ago, I saw something familiar.

My...
Magazine freebie bag with my wallet inside...

30 seconds before the bus departs.

Stomp stomp stomp stomp stomp stomp stomp stomp stomp

I dashed through the narrow aisle from the very back seat‼️

“Um, driver‼️ I forgot my wallet on the bench outside, can I get off to go get it‼️”

Oh no, oh no no no no—you! Seriously! What have I done!!!!! (Panic)

Even after I safely returned to my seat, I was in a daze for a while from the shock of almost leaving my wallet behind in Tokyo, and I couldn't stop shaking and trembling lol

And so, ayamo's Nanhana Party Tokyo reward solo trip, where I almost committed the biggest blunder in history at the very last minute, comes to an end.

Tom Misch / It Runs Through Me (feat. De La Soul)

Come to think of it, a foreigner asked me how to take the train at Shibuya Station. I'm such a country bumpkin that I could use some help myself, but I was happy they asked me, so I looked it up with them. I wasn't able to be of any help, though.