The Answer Is Within You

The Power of Anger
As those who have read my "First Note" may know, I got divorced five years ago and became a single mother.

There were more than enough reasons for it, but the fundamental reason was simple.

It happened suddenly one day.

My dog barked because he wanted to go out for his nightly pee, so I took him into the garden to let him go.

I looked up at the sky and saw a sky full of stars ✨🌌✨

As I was gazing at how beautiful it was, a strong sense of will welled up from within me.

“To keep living here like this is to live while dying. I want to live with my soul. I want to live by my soul!”

I was surprised at myself for suddenly saying such a thing, but at the same time, I felt a deep sense of conviction, and the heavy weight that had been stuck inside me for so long vanished in an instant.

Perhaps it was thanks to the dog taking so long to pee (lol), or maybe it wasn't the pee? (No need to dig deeper into that), I never dreamed I would connect with my true essence that night, and I fell asleep wondering about the strange thing that had happened.

While there were several reasons for the divorce, what was especially significant for me was the intense anger of "Do not kill the individual that is me."

Humans are creatures that can only find healing and satisfaction at a cellular level when their individuality is respected.

The moment the anger within me reached its maximum, my true desire began to squirm and emerge, and the firework of "I want to live by my soul" went off with a bang, revealing its existence.

The power of anger is amazing...

That firework would never have gone off if it weren't for the power of anger.

Anger, the powerful force that gave me the resolve to live by my soul.

It's just like what Giyu said to Tanjiro in the first episode of Demon Slayer: "Strong anger becomes the driving force that moves your limbs."

Letting it out
If there is anyone out there who is currently feeling frustrated with anger, I have a recommended action for you.

Prepare a notebook or paper you don't need (I set out a lot of my children's used worksheets), and just write down the words that come out of you.

Your current feelings. The emotions you've been holding deep in your gut that you couldn't tell anyone.

First, get out, get out, get out everything that has accumulated in your gut.

"Screw you!"
"You idiot!"
"Damn it!"
No matter what words come out, there is no judgment.
(I have some pretty wild ones myself 😅 lol)

Once you have a world all to yourself where no one can see you, your hand will start moving as if by automatic writing.

Perhaps you could call it a form of self-healing where you intentionally let it all out.

Your brain and heart, which remember being taught in childhood or at school that "you shouldn't say things like that!", will unconsciously or consciously force a shutdown on yourself, telling you that you shouldn't be angry.

But the feeling of being pissed off actually exists, so it stays in your gut like a living thing, losing its place to go with nowhere to vent.

To those feelings, say,
"It's okay, come on out,"
and use a blank sheet of paper as a field to let out what has been building up.

Even if your hand suddenly stops, if you wait a little, it will start moving again.
Sometimes tears might suddenly start to fall.

It is a world of complete lack of control.

And it is truly mysterious, but once these feelings that have been building up in your gut find a place to go and depart, your true wishes will show their face.

Ah, so that's what I wanted...

You meet your own needs and experience a sense of oneness.

I have been saved many times by doing this.

And then, tell this paper you wrote on "thank you" ✨ (I hug it for a while) and put it in the trash.

The me who has found the answer is here, so it's okay now.

A journey to meet your true wishes by using your feelings of anger as a guide.
(It is effective not only for anger, but also when you are just feeling frustrated, hurt by something, or wondering 'why?' without knowing the reason.)

It's free, you can do it without anyone knowing, and you can do it anytime, so I recommend it 😊

The answer is within you.