Oh boy, oh boy

While being soothed by the scent of Mlesna's Blue Vidro...

Well,
actually, until this morning,
I was feeling incredibly down (lol).
#WhatAreWeTalkingAbout
(The joy of being able to use this hashtag 😆)

Surely the second time in my life,
(second time 🤣)

my physical condition was just too bad.

Starting with trigeminal nerve damage,
pain,
insomnia,
vomiting,
stomach pain,
nausea,
dizziness,
and on top of that, the side effects of chemotherapy from three years ago...
I realized something I didn't want to realize.

As if to say 'how about this,'
so many things came crashing down at once,
a storm of hospital visits—it was hell.

Just between us,
for the first time, two nights ago,
I shed tears (lol).
It was on purpose.
I wanted to relieve stress, so I let myself do it.
As expected, I felt refreshed (lol).
I guess I really do have a heart of steel.

Shedding tears is an important form of purification.
As soon as my mind calmed down,
this morning my body also settled down, and various things were resolved.
In fact, some big new news even came in.
I received a wonderful offer from a dear friend of my heart.

Chains of events always exist.
I believe that.
That's why I will never become a negative person.

No matter what happens,
I believe it's a trial that opens a new door.

Various things happen here on Note, too.
But every time that happens, I think,
I feel that they probably just couldn't find any other way to do it.

I have friends who enrich my heart,
and people who genuinely care about me.
Realizing that alone makes me a happy person.

It's not about
good
or bad.

It's about what kind of life you've lived.

That's what it all comes down to.

I can't say that everything in my life up to now has been good...
But I look back, reflect, and make changes.
It's a cycle of that.

People aren't perfect.
We make mistakes and sometimes cause trouble for others.
We're all in this together.

I want to be tolerant, including toward myself.
#WhatAreWeTalkingAbout

As an imperfect person, I want to keep running as my heart desires,
chasing the person I want to be.

I don't know how much longer my body will keep up with me (lol).
While being careful not to get dumped by it,
I want to fully savor the life I'm living now.

Well,
what kind of doors will I open from here on out?
I can't help but look forward to it.

Who will I be able to walk with?
I can't help but look forward to it.

The future belongs only to me.
I can't help but look forward to it.

For the first time in a while,
I was able to write in a fun, note-like way.

Man, seriously though,
I thought my heart was going to break.