The Story of How I Couldn't Express My True Feelings | Right now, in front of me, is the me from two and a half years ago.

"It's just right to have low self-esteem."
"This is the only merit I have."
"Someone like me isn't that great."

Oh, the me from two and a half years ago was saying the same thing.
And that still lingers a little in the me of today.

That's why I remembered it in a fleeting moment.

In my case,
"I have nothing. I am inferior to everyone."

I was spilling things like that
to my strengths coach.

At that time, the coach

shook their head slowly and broadly,
saying, "That's not true."

It's not like I received
any concrete advice.

Even so,
I knew my heart had softened at that moment.

The moment I poured out my true feelings
as someone who couldn't find value in themselves.

The "That's not true" words and gesture
that came back immediately.

Perhaps,
it was the first time I had ever shared my true feelings with someone.

I had never even expressed them to my parents, teachers, friends,
or even to myself.

I had layered many sheets of sugarcoating over my true feelings
so that they couldn't be seen,
so that they wouldn't be seen,
pretending not to notice my true feelings.

But for some reason, to that person,
I wanted to show my "true feelings."

Deep down, I wanted them to notice.
Deep down, I wanted to show everything.
I wanted to let it all out and feel at ease.

But,
what would the other person think if I showed them my true feelings?
…No, that's not it.

My own true feelings,
my own heart, had become unknown to me.

If you keep them locked away in your heart for a long, long time,
they slowly fade from view.

But you know, they didn't disappear.

They were just tucked away deep inside, becoming invisible
and impossible to retrieve.

They disappear from your consciousness and you forget them.

But they are still there in your unconscious.

To know your own heart, you see,
you have to practice expressing your true feelings.

Even if someone says, "Come on, tell me your true feelings!"
you can't do it, right?
Because even the person themselves has forgotten them.

Even if you try to pry them open with techniques,
your true feelings won't come out.

You have to trust the other person and just wait patiently.

A month from now? A year from now? Ten years from now?
I don't even know the timing.

When the person themselves
truly wants to change
and faces their own heart,
if I happen to be by their side at just the right moment,

how happy I would be
to witness such a moment.

I want to be by your side
the moment you let your true feelings slip out.

My approach is different from a coach's approach.

To be precise, halfway through,
I thought I wanted to be able to do the same things as a coach.

But eventually, I started to notice a sense of discomfort.

I tried moving forward while leaving that discomfort as it was for a while,
but it seems my intuition was right after all.

I want to unravel your unconscious mind together with you.

The past version of yourself that even you have forgotten.

The future version of yourself that envisions a world yet to be seen.

By putting your current
heart and thoughts into words,
why not try looking at yourself from a bird's-eye view?

I won't rush, and I won't make you rush.

The voice of your heart,

when you feel like you can say it,

please reach out to me gently.

I don't understand myself...
To you who feels that way. Please do ♡

I want to express myself in words...
but I just can't seem to... To you who feels this way. Please do ♡