Poor health is a sign of a "fresh start" | A cheer in the form of hives and normalized blood pressure
Honestly, I have been suffering from these hives.
I really don't want to talk about things like this, but...
These hives started appearing
about two months ago, in April.
After the divorce mediation,
at the family court,
my lawyer said,
"It looks like this mediation will be over in one more session!"
When they said that to me...
inside me,
surely something
that had been
tense
the 20 years of married life
No, for a period longer than that
Something inside me
distortion
tension
that had been
things
began to loosen...
And
because of that
these hives
started to appear
I am fully aware that this is
a line of thinking with very little medical basis,
but I have been intuitively
thinking about the cause
of these hives.
...
My mentor in Morioka
also recently affirmed
this idea.
At a social gathering,
when the topic of these hives came up with my mentor,
before I had even shared my thoughts,
they spoke about it.
"Aru-san
Usually, when divorce mediation ends and
you get hives like this,
some people interpret it as
a punishment,
a penalty,
don't they?
Like, 'I'm being punished'
or something, haha.
But for you, Aru-san,
now that you're divorced and
moving forward with your life,
this is actually necessary.
Though, it might be hard for
the average person to
understand that.
Hahahaha."
When I was told that,
I thought, 'Ah, my mentor really is
'I understand.'
I felt relieved
...
That's right
I
just like with my divorce
since my training last year and the
emotional issues
that followed
have been gradually resolved
and now, finally
I am trying to live as my true self
I am aware that
I am at that stage
Therefore, I
view these
hives as
a kind of
detox
So,
I believe that 'what is happening now is necessary,
and trying to force it down
is not a good idea'
is what I think
~~~
However, honestly
to be honest, living with these symptoms
is
painful... haha
Especially at night
The itching
makes it difficult to sleep
From when the hives started appearing
until now
I am not sleeping well
In the middle of the night, I find myself scratching my body
And because of that movement and the itching
I wake up
Applying moisturizing cream
And getting back to sleep
Is quite difficult...
Before I know it
The sky outside is getting bright...
I manage to get through my work during the day,
but somehow,
during my lunch break,
in my car,
I have to fold myself up
and take a short nap,
otherwise I can't function in the afternoon...
I have been living like this for a while now.
I will stop writing
about these painful symptoms
here.
However, the reason for these hives,
as mentioned above,
Although it is in my own way
because I understand
"what is necessary is happening"
I recognize it and
somehow
I have been overcoming it
~~~
"But considering
the years you, Al, have endured,
those hives
won't be ending
anytime soon, haha"
My mentor
calmly
said things that were
not so calm, haha
Also
the main theme of this
training session
was visceral treatment,
but along the way,
everyone
took turns palpating my liver
There was such a scene.
"It's quite swollen, isn't it?
About the same level as a patient
rushed to the emergency room for a stroke, haha."
My mentor, who was touching my liver, said this,
so my fellow trainees,
having been told that,
"Huh? Really? Let me see."
they said,
taking turns,
and came over to touch it.
"This is... terrible..."
"Why did you leave it until it got this bad? Haha."
My colleagues didn't hold back with me.
They gave me
their honest thoughts, haha
The liver is desperately trying
to break down and
expel the things
that have built up
inside the body,
even if it takes the form of hives,
it is doing its best
to try and
expel them
I am
my swollen liver
thinking of it that way
deep inside my right ribs
touching my own liver
I am feeling grateful
~~~
the problem that occurred in my body
no
the 'symptom of problem solving' is
not just hives
There was none
The 4th chakra
Located right in the center of the chest
Also known as the heart chakra
I had a major problem
here
Ever since I first attended my mentor's seminar
at key points during my training
my 4th chakra
would react violently
It happened
Specifically
Violently convulse
it does
Bottled up and accumulated
Psychology
When that is released
it happens
Violently convulse
it does
Experienced therapists
Mentors and their former students
People like them
seem to be used to it
The first time they saw it, my companions
were all surprised and bewildered.
When I am having
a seizure,
I myself,
while feeling some pain,
have the sensation that something unnecessary
is leaving my chest.
It is a phenomenon
that has happened many times.
During my training the other day
finally
there was a major opportunity for release
heart
practicing treatment of
among peers, each other
when we were doing
my heart
when it was being treated
intense and long
convulsions occurred
What comes out from within
for those who are sensitive
is, in itself, an unpleasant presence.
My mentor
went, "Ahhhhh,
as I thought, oh no! *crying*"
and, wailing and screaming,
to the corner
of the practice room,
ran away. *laughs*
To my fellow practitioners
"Windows, windows, let's open them!!
Open the doors, too!!"
I was giving instructions
for ventilation
from my side
"Poison gas is coming out!"
I was treated just like that
Hahahaha
Like the "Stink Spirit"
(though that's not actually what it was) that appears in "Spirited Away"
I was treated like that, lol
Honestly, how rude
Hahahaha
~~~
However
Through my training
my treatment skills
have certainly been improving
but at the same time
I myself
Purification
is happening
The process
is very difficult, but
purification
is being done for me
Of course, this too
for my growth as a healer
is necessary, but
starting with my mentor
With the help of
many people
my body
is working hard to purify itself
That is how I feel
...
Last year, I was mainly
able to undergo
a major change
in my inner self
thank you
Right now
a major change
is happening
within this body
that is how I feel
...
When the treatment
for the heart, the fourth chakra, was completed
Once the poison gas commotion ended
and my mentor had calmed down,
I asked,
"So I have been bottling up
my long-standing emotional problems in my heart, haven't I?
It must be because
my heart is weak, right?"
And
then my mentor
replied like this:
"Al,
that is not the case."}]
Strong
because
psychological issues
you were able to store them up
Al's heart
must have originally been
very strong
that is why
Al's life up until now
Al
psychological issues
all of them
in that very strong
heart
you must have been bottling them up
strong
because of that
It is precisely because you are strong
that you were able to hold it all in
Ah... right now
Al's heart
is in a very good state!
My mentor said with a smile
as they taught me.
Without thinking, I
placed my hand
on my chest.
...
You have endured for so long
My heart
Gratitude
is all I have
for you
~~~
I am
for my current body
covered in hives
I decided,
'I will do whatever is necessary'
for you.
For the sake of the heart
that has endured until now,
I decided,
'I will do whatever is necessary'
for you.
Time,
money,
I will spend them
without hesitation.
That is what I decided
That is what I can do
For my body
As a sign of gratitude
It is
If you would like
About what I did
Specifically, next time
I am thinking of writing it down
However, yesterday morning
My body to me
It gave me a sign
Blood pressure
is
Actually, from the beginning
I have had high blood pressure
The upper (systolic) reading is always
over 140
The problem is more with
the lower (diastolic) reading
It exceeds 100
Every time I measure it
"146/102 mmHg, huh..."
I sighed.
"I really need to do something about this."
While thinking that vaguely,
I did nothing
and went on with my life.
However,
yesterday at work,
I suddenly had a short break,
so I decided to measure my blood pressure.
115/68 mmHg
is what it showed
The image of the blood pressure monitor above
I took a picture of it because I was so happy
While being watched by
the caregiver and the nurse nearby
who were laughing at me... lol
It is the blood pressure monitor at my workplace that I always use
I have been measuring it from time to time
but lately, it has been improving steadily
As if my body
'Keep it up!'
that is what it is saying
I felt that way
'I'm happy'
that is what I thought
And then again
to my body
that sent me the message
I give my thanks...
~~~
Yes
That is all for my story
Depending on the reader
I may have written down
some outlandish ideas
without sugarcoating them, haha
Feeling the limitations of Western medicine,
I hope you will forgive me
for these being the unique thoughts
of someone who provides specialized treatment
If you get hives,
what do you all do immediately?
Please consult a medical institution! Haha
Good children should
never imitate me! Haha
Lastly, I just wanted to
say this. Haha
Next time, I don't know if
there is a need for it, but
for the time being,
I think I will record what I am doing for my body.
I think I will record it.
Thank you very much for reading
this far.
From 3:30 AM, unable to sleep due to itching. Haha
