Surprise Consultation: A Promise with My Doctor

Hello, this is Aine.

I finished my mental maintenance safely this month as well. At the reception, there was a sign that said
“Today is Dr. B’s consultation,” so it seemed my regular doctor wasn't there yet. When my name was called and I entered the consultation room,

“Hello, sorry to keep you waiting.”

It wasn't the son doctor! It was my regular doctor!!

That was a happy surprise!

“How have you been?”
Yeah, yeah. Exactly.
My regular doctor starts with polite language at first.
“I’m stable. I’ll be starting Type A employment on the 6th.”
“Oh! That’s soon!”
The polite language breaks down in an instant (lol).
“What kind of work will you be doing? Computer work?”
“Mostly computer work, but sometimes I’ll help out at the confectionery workshop, and product packaging seems common too. Also, sorting mail outside the facility.”
“Wow, there’s a lot of different work.”
“It’s better than being bored, I’m looking forward to learning.”
“Usually I’d ask if you’re okay, but...
Aine-san, you’ll learn it and get it done, won’t you? Haha!”
“Haha~, I’ll try to do it at my own pace.”

My regular doctor doesn't worry openly.
After 24 years together, we know each other well.
For me, being trusted even a little gives me more strength than being overly worried about.
My doctor doesn't say things directly, but because of that, there are many thoughts hidden in the words spoken.

We both understand that very well.
That’s why the consultation room is always warm and cozy.

At the end, there was a cheer from my doctor.
“I feel like it’s been a long time since I’ve seen your positive motivation, Aine-san.
It’s nice when you have motivation, isn't it?
Let’s do our best starting next week.”
“Thank you very much.
I’ll take it easy and go at my own pace.
If anything comes up, I’ll let my family, you, and the son doctor know.”
“Yeah, tell us anytime!
We’ll be waiting.”
“Yes!”

With this surprise consultation, we talked about many other things, laughed, and even laughed about things that had nothing to do with anything.

Mental maintenance is definitely necessary.

I realized it’s not just about fixing things when you're feeling unwell,
but it’s also necessary to maintain your condition and find when you're in a good state.
Because my doctor breaks out of the polite language so quickly, I don't feel nervous, and I can talk frankly, which makes me feel very secure.

What kind of walls and holes will be waiting for me from the 6th?
I’m sure I’ll bump into things, fall down, and have all sorts of experiences.
But since the doctor said,
“It’s been a long time since I’ve seen your positive motivation,”
that positive motivation,
it seems that is what makes me truly like myself.
There were times when my motivation spun out of control,
but now I’m adjusting and pacing myself as I live,
so neither I nor my doctor are worried about that.
My father also says,“You should just enjoy it.”so.

I’m aiming to be an administrative department leader!!I haven't put this in my goals.
I want to receive stimulation from the outside, learn how to dodge pressure, work, gain motivation,
and live a life worth living.
That is the big goal of using Type A employment this time.

Don't push too hard, don't push too hard,
I’m going to do this at my own height.

＊Aine＊