The internal monologue I have when I immediately follow back, even though I don't believe in 100% follow-back.
Tonight, I want to write about a note discussion that is a little awkward to talk about.
Reading this article posted by Hiiro-san this morning, I felt a lot of empathy and realized that I still have a desire to be seen as a good person.
Hiiro-san, thank you as always...!
Basically, I am a free-spirited Aquarius who follows people I'm interested in without any strategy or the law of reciprocity at work. However, sometimes I encounter people among those who follow me whose glamorous profiles I am intensely attracted to, or who make me want to lean in because they seem to have momentum, and I find myself following them back in an instant.
Actually, at those times, the following internal monologue takes place in my brain.
If you don't follow this person back, they'll surely unfollow you later.
...Yeah, that's probably true, but...
At that time, I think Tomoko will definitely feel lonely.
...Right?
In that case, just follow them back now.
...Yeah, you're right, and actually, I am interested in them right now.
Follow-back confirmed!!
If I don't follow back, they'll probably unfollow me later, so I follow back because that would be lonely.
It was so unconscious that I had never thought about it, but now that I've put it into words, I feel like I can see my own emotions very clearly. I might have been doing this quite a bit.
After thinking about it, I took action.
I was following 421 people, but I reduced it to 409.
I might reduce it a little more from now on.
Also, to tell the truth, it's quite a shock when someone I'm mutually following and have exchanged comments with unfollows me.
Oh no... did I say something wrong? If it's not that, and they just unfollowed me because they thought, 'Something is different,' that would be fine...
Or, I think maybe they didn't mean to unfollow me and did it by mistake, so I'll wait and see for a while... lol ← Heavy
However, it turns out it wasn't a mistake, and one day I realize that they really did unfollow me for a reason. What should I do? But I want to read this person's articles... The internal monologue I have in my brain at that time is as follows.
Don't keep following them like you're still attached even though you've been dumped.
...Wow, I wonder if I'm an eyesore after all.
They've cleared you from their timeline and feel relieved, so it's annoying if you keep liking their posts and drawing attention to your existence.
...No, there's no one on note who thinks that far, surely...
But isn't it pretty tough to keep following someone even after they've unfollowed you?
...No, actually, that's true. Maybe it would be easier to just say goodbye once.
Then unfollow them quickly.
...That's true, but I'm worried about what if it comes across as an angry vibe like, 'You unfollowed me, so I'll unfollow you too!'
You're thinking that much even though you've been unfollowed!? That's enough, lol.
And now.
I also want to read only the articles of people that the 'current' me really wants to read.
That honest feeling has surfaced.
Therefore, I want to follow and unfollow freely without worrying, and I sincerely hope that people will do the same for me.
(If I lose over 100 followers in a week, I'll write an article about it while crying... but being natural is the best...!!)
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