Day 1: My second child is born! Emergency doctor becomes a father of two

I have an announcement for everyone.
My second child was born the other day!
I am so happy, and when I think about the difficulties that might await me in raising my children from here on out, I feel nothing but anxiety but.
However, it was still a happiness that surpassed that.

So, separate from my usual posts, I've decided to write a magazine as a sort of diary titled
“Emergency Doctor Becomes a Father of Two.”

In this magazine, I, a workaholic who charges ahead like a wild boar, will be writing about my real experiences, what I felt, and the adjustments I made in my daily life after taking paternity leave.
Please refer to this for the reason why I started note. You might be able to understand what kind of person is writing this.

・To dads and moms like me who are struggling with child-rearing while working.
・To those who are about to become dads and moms.
・To everyone who supports them.
I want to convey my real experiences to you.

What makes this different from a simple child-rearing record is my policy on education, how I apply work techniques to housework, and perhaps the fact that it's passionate.

I hope you will feel free to read it.

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A cloudy sky.
A few days after I started my paternity leave.
My wife's water broke.

After waking up, my child said to my wife as usual,
“I want to see this! Hold me.”
The moment she picked him up.

“My water broke!!””

Because it was such a sudden event, I was blank for a moment.
This is what “blank” means.
I couldn't hide my typical surprise.
It didn't seem like a prank.

“This is her water breaking!!”

From there, it was a huge rush to contact my mother-in-law and the hospital.
When I contacted the hospital, they said it was fine to come a little later, so we ate breakfast, and things proceeded relatively smoothly.

“Don't tell her to ‘do your best’!”
I had been told that before, but it was emphasized again.
“I'm doing my best even without being told!”
That was the reason for it.
It is often said that there are things men cannot understand.
I keenly felt that women facing pain that could kill them are doing their best without needing to be told.

The feeling on the way to the hospital was strange.
Am I finally going to be a father of two?
And this time, it's a girl.
Although I thought I would be calmer than the first time, I was still nervous.
Above all, I just want her to give birth safely.
I sometimes see patients who are transported to the emergency room because they are not doing well after childbirth, so above all, I just wanted her to give birth safely. That was all I felt.
The song playing was Sambomaster's “I love you”

Arrived at the hospital.
Because of COVID, I have to wait in the car.
“Is this it? Will it take a while? I'll wait forever!”
“It will still take some time. We will call you when it's time for the birth, so please go kill some time somewhere.”
I was let down.
Since our house was close, I went home once, leaving my wife behind.
I took a break where my mother-in-law and son were waiting.
My son didn't seem to understand what was happening yet.
“Daddy, where did you go?”
“To the hospital.”
“Where's Mommy? Does it hurt somewhere? Pain, pain, go away!””
He's just so cute.
I was moved, thinking that another child like this was about to be born.

After some time passed, I received a message from my wife saying I could come now.
I grabbed some lunch at a convenience store before going.
Usually I would settle for a cheap meal, but today is a day of celebration.
I bought a tortilla and a meat bun, and splurged a little before heading to the hospital.
I had a feeling of wanting to go quickly, but I also felt fluffy.
Even if there was a car wanting to cut into my lane,
I thought, “Go ahead, go ahead!” No matter what anyone does to me now, I feel like I can forgive anything.
The song I listened to on the way was Sambomaster's “very special!!” and “You've got to do the impossible”

This kind of happiness is very special!

As I start building a family with two children from here on out, there will surely be many difficulties.
However, let's fight on with strength. I renewed my determination with that thought.

When I arrived at the hospital, I was shown to my wife's room.
When I entered, my wife was already in quite a lot of pain.
While flustered, I searched for anything I could do.
She had said that rubbing her back was helpful with our first child.
Remembering that, I just rubbed her back.
Not knowing what to say to my wife who was in pain, I could do nothing but rub her back.
Naturally, I put strength into my rubbing hands.
"I'd prefer it if you pressed harder."
I massaged with even more force than before, but
while my wife was in pain all over her body, the only thing that started hurting was my own thumb
.

And then,
"Oh, this is it. It's coming. Call the nurse!!!!"
I held the hand of my wife who was being wheeled into the delivery room.
In my heart, I found myself saying,
"Do your best!"
Out loud, I said, "It's okay. It's okay!! I'm right here!"
From there, it was an instant.

"Waaah!!!" A cry echoed through the room.

She was finally born!
A truly healthy baby girl.
With such great energy that I wondered where it all came from, she cried.

My wife really did her best.
"You did great. Thank you so much"
I poured all the 'do your best' I had been holding back into those words.

When I looked at the baby,
there was a sparkle of light around her and
she was staring right at me
She looks like she will be a strong-willed child.
Her hands were wrinkled, and her eyes were puffy.
But she was cute.
She looks like our eldest son,
I said while talking with my wife.

I have nothing but gratitude for my wife.
She gives my life light and a reason to live.

Such a tiny body filled with energy.
She looks at me with eyes that seem to be appealing to me.
Thank you for being born!
For this child's sake, I have to do my best.

We had a photo taken of the three of us.
The realization that we had become a family of four and that I had a daughter
began to sprout.
I have to become stronger.
I have no time to be worried about life or work,
I will live for these children.

Living is suffering, but
sometimes it gives us brilliance

Life is wonderful precisely because there are mountains and valleys.
There are many painful things, but I am happy.
Having a family might increase the amplitude of those mountains and valleys even more,
but I want to live such a life happily.

I also called my eldest son.
"Baby!"

My eldest son is accepting her too.
I thought he might regress, but perhaps it was worth all the times I talked to him about it?
My son was happy too.

While on the phone, having skin-to-skin contact with my wife and daughter, and taking photos,
my time there was already up.
There was no time to just spend slowly with my wife.
This is because visiting hours are kept to a minimum due to COVID-19.

When I returned home, my son and my mother-in-law were waiting eagerly for my return.
We shared the joy together and looked at the photos.
My son said she was cute, and it seems he is accepting her.

My mother-in-law had things to do at home, so she went back after making some pre-prepared meals for us.
My first meal alone with my son.
It's a special time.
Just the two meneating together.
I was happy and celebrated with my favorite fried chicken that I bought on the way home.
When I asked my son if he wanted to eat, he said, "No!"
Fried chicken is a staple for men, though, haha.

Finished dinner, completed my son's night routine, and went to bed.
Both my son and I were exhausted, so we fell asleep together.

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