My brain glitched because I'm not used to a kind world #WorkMemories

About 10 years ago, the concept and term 'harassment' didn't exist like they do now, and at bottom-tier companies like day-labor sites, words like 'I'll kill you,' 'Do you want to die?', and 'I'm going to beat you up' were flying around, and I worked 8 hours a day in that environment.

That was the norm, and since others besides me were being told those things, I suppose that's why I was able to endure it.

It was painful because I had to endure so much, so I used self-administered psychological therapy to address the negative memories of work and release the emotional trauma.

Perhaps thanks to that, recently the phenomenon has reversed!

As emotional recovery progresses, it reflects in the real world in an interesting way, changing positively. Looking at the current situation, it seems the 'emotional trauma from day labor' has almost completely healed.

I am able to work happily at 90% of the sites I go to for gig work. The remaining 7% are out because of bad interpersonal relationships or hard physical labor. 3% are completely out. Occasionally, there are such dud sites, but if 90% are positive, working is just easy now!

Every time I go to a different site, I wish, 'I hope there are no scary employees!', but recently, strangely enough, everyone is kind!

Among them, there are people with fully positive personalities, and even employees who are too kind.

There are also companies that treat gig workers as if they were customers.

When a department manager or the president of a small company says to me, 'Welcome, thank you for coming!', I get flustered and go, 'Whoa!'

'Wait, what? You don't have to be that considerate to a one-off part-timer!' is how much they sometimes go out of their way for me.

Of course, the other employees are all kind too; there's no getting angry, and no rushing me...

Coming from someone like me who, until a little over 10 years ago, survived in lawless, cutthroat workplaces that didn't seem like Japan—where, let alone verbal abuse, I was seriously almost killed—experiencing such kind, considerate, god-tier service sites makes my brain glitch and leaves me mentally confused.

*Stories about sites where forklifts would charge at you like they were going to run you over, and sites where people died, are included in the '600-Company Work Stories' paid magazine.

'From 720 yen to 3000 yen per hour. The trajectory of me who worked at 650 companies'

When I'm treated too well, I start to feel a bit guilty.

'I'm grateful, but I feel bad.'
Ambivalence.

I guess I have a lingering aftereffect where I can't honestly be happy about the 'kindness' at my part-time jobs.

How can I cure this?

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