The 'Goodbye All Evangelions' Game.

It's a story about 'working at Timee'.

I've done customer service and sales before. I've met so many people, and now, through this note, I'm meeting the 'insides of people's heads'.

People who show themselves, people who don't, happy people, blue people, sparkling people, and greasy people lol

I like the inside of the heads of greasy people. It makes me feel like 'Hisoka,' with all those diagonal lines converging on his crotch lol

It's like, 'Wow, you're being so human, aren't you?' Without distinguishing between good and evil, keeping the possibility of being disliked in their hearts, they make statements while trembling, holding onto this 'freedom of speech-like thing that feels like it would shatter if you just touched it,' saying, 'Everyone else is using it, so I'll use it a little too'.

I don't think anything is as much of a 'finished piece of writing' as a 'scribble.' Is it literature? It's the person's raw self, I suppose. I really do like the 'source' of a person.

That's why I'm intrigued by people who don't care about good and evil, and I get excited when I come across such people or such minds.

And I want them to be happier than anyone else.

It's okay to be putting on a brave face or to be afraid, right?

Being able to touch your own 'raw self' and expressing it in words, or trying to, even while feeling embarrassed.

This is one of those 'talents'.

These are the people who really need to be happy! Don't get the order wrong next time! God! That's what I think. The human rights of people who commit crimes saying things like 'I had no intent to kill' should come last. Please, God, I really think that.

Director Anno was this kind of person at first, too. Of course, this is just a guess, a presumption based on my own experience.

I only watched the final Evangelion in a movie theater because I happened to have the chance.

My impression was, 'It was amazing' lol.

I happened to watch the Evangelions before that, too.

Shinji-kun is so wishy-washy. And the characters around him are overly protective of him. That's only natural, since Shinji-kun is a projection of Director Anno himself. This is also a presumption.

Director Anno wanted to teach everyone about his own experiences. He wanted to ask questions. I wonder if Evangelion wasn't a work packed with those thoughts.

Compared to 'ordinary others,' 'myself' is painful. Trying to cling to Asuka or Rei, or complaining about them. By interacting with others who are 'different' from me, I come to understand myself. I also interact with Gendo, my parent, who is an 'other' in the sense that he is different from me.

Real-life parenting is the same. You grow by interacting with the 'words and actions' of your own child. Knowing 'myself' through 'others,' who can also be the cause of my own suffering.

That is me, and this is me.

I learn about myself through songs others have written, and I learn about myself by looking at pictures others have drawn.

Me through others? If it's a set, wouldn't it be better if we were 'together' from the start? I don't deny the way of thinking that says, 'Since we are different, and because there are different parts, it's painful, so why not just be 'together' and 'complement' each other from the beginning?' But you don't have to focus on such unrealistic ideas; it's perfectly fine for us to be 'separate individuals'.

It doesn't matter if the self you've come to know is dirty or evil. That's fine as it is. That is a talent. Talent isn't something pretty, you know.

I wonder if Director Anno wanted to teach this to people who love anime. I think he finished it as a work that asks everyone, 'This is what I think, what about you?' through a robot anime. Though, it has such a strong feeling of being 'finished' because he packed so much into it, haha.

And this is about the 'TV anime version'.

Now, the movie version. That ending, haha.

This is also my assumption. My own conclusion.

I watched the third movie in the theater, and it was amazing, wasn't it?

The moment the movie ended, I felt 'left behind', haha.

To summarize it briefly,

'You need someone to take your hand and pull you along! I've found such a person, so I'm moving on now! You should look for one too! I hope you find someone! See ya! Goodbye! Everyone!'

With that kind of momentum, he suddenly started packing up the dioramas and the footage, and Director Anno went off somewhere, pulled along by a girl, haha.

It was so sudden that I was left behind, haha.

I was like, 'Wait a minute, hey!' haha.

Am I the only one? Am I the only one who feels this way? I haven't met anyone in reality who has had similar thoughts.

But well, after showing all sorts of 'quirks'—getting attached to a type like Rei, getting attached to a type like Asuka, hanging around the older Misato—in the end, it's just, 'I love someone who will pull me along like this,' huh, haha.

But it must have had such an effect on 'himself'—to the point where even Director Anno was surprised—that 'someone to pull him along'.

Rather than someone to pull him along, it's 'someone to guide him.' Someone who knows him and waits for him to start moving on his own.

I agree with that part as well.

Surprisingly, everyone goes through life having met people who 'aren't messed up'.

Someone who says, 'We're going to a drinking party!' and forcefully pulls your arm,

or someone who grabs your arm firmly when you're about to give in and go along because you can't say no, and stops you by saying, 'If you don't want to go, you don't have to. Don't participate.'

A hand that suddenly appears and grabs your arm.

There are many people whose 'messed-up-ness' is stopped by being pulled like that.

That's why life is a bit like a 'game where you first have to meet someone who will pull your arm' lol

A game where you get to leave once you've been able to say, 'Goodbye, all Evangelions!' lol

It's tough, isn't it lol. Like, 'God, are you serious?' I say it over and over. Life is a gag. If you can't laugh at this level of difficulty, life remains difficult.

Director Anno starts something in the middle of a birdcage.
→ Everyone gathers.
→ Anno asks everyone, 'It's like this, right?' 'Isn't it like this?' 'For me, it was like this.'
→ Everyone analyzes and criticizes.
→ More people gather.
→ Anno reports to everyone.
→ 'I got married.'
→ 'If you all find a good partner, your worries will be largely resolved too! Goodbye!' he says, suddenly holding hands with his wife and flying off somewhere, leaving everyone in the birdcage behind.
→ Everyone is left behind in the birdcage lol

But this actually happens in real life, too. Familiar faces in a community,

'an existence that suddenly appears from the outside world'

pulls their arm, and they disappear one by one.

Well, some people do come back to the birdcage looking like 'Toki' covered in 'death ash,' saying, 'Hey...' after getting divorced or betrayed lol

This 'existence that suddenly appears from the outside world' is important.

From the outside.

Shinji from Evangelion is Director Anno. All the characters are 'imaginary figures inside Director Anno's head'.

Rei, Asuka, Misato, and Toji, too.

There's a limit to thinking about things in your head.

An existence in the real world that pulls you from the outside understands the 'you who wants to go a little' and the 'you who doesn't want to go a little.' It's an existence that corrects you when you try to go in a direction different from that, or acknowledges you. By talking to such an existence, it's common for your 'own outline' to become clear.

Can you 'clearly' grasp your 'own outline'? Aren't you filling in the parts that aren't 'clear' with 'assumptions'? To make it clear, you need other people.

If you don't want to wait for luck like a "wife gacha" like Anno-kun, and if you can't wait for a "hand to suddenly appear from the outside world," I think it wouldn't be bad to step out of the birdcage and expand the possibilities yourself to meet someone who will pull your hand "in reality."

Why not try working with Timee?

Timee is actually really good, you know?

I also recommend it to those who are working hard at their main jobs or side hustles.

People call you "Timee-san, Timee-san," and there are nothing but new encounters. Since you're the one going out there, these aren't coincidental, but inevitable encounters. You are controlling your own life.

I worked through Timee recently myself, and my own outline became clear. I realized I could still work, and I was even able to get along with my first-time, younger boss lol.

The part of me that was unsure if I could do it became clear. I realized I could.

I just happened to be lucky. I've had atopic dermatitis since birth, and because I would scratch until my face looked like a monster, I was never in the "birdcage with everyone else" to begin with.

I liked customer service, so by the time I was 17 or 18, I was already being forced to cry in frustration by "complainers," which made me stronger outside the birdcage. I had no choice but to become strong. Because I worked in commission-based sales, I learned that "I can make money even if I quit," which allowed me to handle "complainers" with a light touch, like Noritake Kinashi saying "thanks to everyone," without getting tense. I also learned early on that money has the effect of a tranquilizer. I think I'm strong. Having seen many "people who say they are unlucky," I realized that being able to think you are "lucky" even in similar circumstances is a "talent."

I didn't know what to say to "people who say they are unlucky" before, but now there are tons of short-term part-time jobs rolling around. Timee. Mercari Hallo.

The slots for right now are often already filled, but if you focus on working hard starting two weeks from now, you can find quite a few.

Since there's no "I have to work at the same place tomorrow," you can pour your "full effort" into that part-time job.

Do you understand? There are tons of chances rolling around to show "others" your "earnest, full effort."

At that point, you've already managed to step about three steps "outside" the "birdcage."

Show off your earnestness.

The "sudden pull" is just a matter of time, right? Assuming God is actually doing His job lol

It's okay. Even if you go outside the birdcage, the greasy, yet precious "parts of yourself" won't disappear. If anything, they will become "denser" through many experiences.

Just because it's greasy and dense doesn't mean everything tastes like sludge. I like sludge, though.

But it's a waste to keep being sludge at the expense of the possibility of having a slightly more transparent taste.

Think about it.

"Japanese-style dressing" can taste like sludge if you get it wrong, you know?

Yes. Now I can't enjoy eating salad anymore. Yay.

If you can think, "I can't be all smiley and carefree like those people," that is already a "talent."

In reality, some of those people who seem so carefree are glancing at you from the corner of their eyes, thinking, "I'm jealous." Being able to put exactly what you're thinking into writing is a "talent."

That said, it's painful. It's painful, but you need other people to ease the burden.

Whether inside or outside the birdcage, money follows you around with a grin.

In that case, you might as well step out of the birdcage into the outside world, look back, and say this to everyone inside:

"Japanese-style dressing is... sludge!!"

Wait, is that wrong? Is it the "Goodbye all..." one?